Life can be a Pain

Sending lots of love and warm wishes @Owlunar Hopefully addressing your traumatic loss in therapy will be helpful to you. It is for me. These days if I need new therapists I always look for someone who is 'trauma informed' in their training and specializing.

Hope the hydrotherapy is good too. I'm doing water tai chi these days and it's wonderful.

@Owlunar

It is great you could work with new gp even though it was unexpected. A new doctor can offer a fresh perspective. I am glad you are pleased with med changes. It has taken a while for recognition of the level of trauma caused by the suicide of a loved one. I love the way you say it can be a celebration of our son's life as well. The fullness of grief encompasses the whole of the person, and as mum, you know more than anyone else. I have found it helpful to be proactive, bring photos or things that help stimulate ... me and make the most of the session.

I have not really gotten into a lot of it with any particular therapist. There just has been too much to go into. In a way writing my story and and some retelling here on the forum has been most helpful, with some feedback from members. Having appointments to attend with a sense of positive regard for me has been essential to my survival.

Thanks for your regard. Dec. I like Greek classics too, in theatrical if not operatic versions. I prefer Antigone to Medea, but they touch on the universal .... An uncle who I lived with in teens, who went too young and surprised us all greatly with his suicide, specialised in Ancient History. So I had some positives, made me feel it was possible to get to uni. He did not pay much attention to me. I looked up to him, but none of the other people in my life held such a possibility or shone a light in that direction. Which would have been where my father would have encouraged me if he was still alive. His study was wonderful wall to wall books, and I ended up given most of his books by his wife (my aunt) as she was not interested.

The Musicians - Botero

hugs @Owlunar

Hi everyone

Checking in to say I am okay - just really tired

Last week really took things out of me - I have needed to take things really easy over the weekend - at lot happened over the week esp on Thursday - then Friday was busy as normal but worse with the heat - I was overcome a couple of times

Hopefully I will be better tomorrow and can be more useful

Dec

Take the time you need to recover as best you can @Owlunar We will be here when you can engage. Look after yourself first Dec

Go easy on yourself @Owlunar

hope you sleep well tonight

take care ❤️

Hi @BlueBay@Zoe7@Shaz51@Appleblossom@utopia@outlander@Sophia1

Sigh - Oh yes - it's still Monday

I had a very quiet weekend but I am still very tired and feel as if my framework is a bit like a very old building facing a future that changes from day-to-day

I don't really feel that bad - it's just what I might be like if I tried my own clipart

I have found my question for the traumatic loss therapist - It's why I still feel so destroyed when issues surrounding my son turn up - I am sure I have thought through everything - not much left to examine - at least not what I can see from where I stand

But there something because I would not feel so rotten from choice - good question - would anyone?

And the GP who is seeing me while my GP is on holidays wants to see me about seeing a private pain specialist - he is all for changes - I am agreeable about that - and like me he thinks that my next appointment with the pain clinic is too far away - and I totally agree - and I am wondering why this is so dicy - I guess the things that are happening are delicate and really stormy

And yet I can still see when life gets really funny - the blackbirds get really angry when the bread on the garden table runs out and start squawking at me - the bread is really mouldy guys - not giving you anything so horrible - and those birds still haven't found the bird bath - and I think the birds are really entertaining - and so bossy

I am a good natured person and I know I will be okay - I am really tired but I am thinking about the holiday I can take in a couple of weeks now and I think it will be Lakes Entrance -

Oh @Owlunar you sound really down. So much going on. Take it easy and just keep thinking of your holiday.

Take care ❤️❤️

Thanks @BlueBay

I had such a hard time in the past I know I will be okay - but it's hard getting past myself atm - I feel really tired and unsettled yet slept a lot during the weekend

For me it's really good to be on my own - I have plenty to do here - I have been playing the piano more lately and that always relaxes me but feeling down - yes - to be honest - but it isn't constant - it's a bit of a moveable feast

But thanks

Dec

ohhhhhhh lots of hugs my second mum @Owlunar

sitting with you my mum xoxoxoxo