Life can be a Pain

Hi @Shaz51

Thanks for your thoughts - I guess you have had some of the same about bad phone calls etc

I felt okay yesterday - Fridays are busy days for me and I just got up- 10.00am - today and feel okay

Perhaps writing about the worst wedding anniversary ever helped - yesterday was my anniversary - it was okay because if there was ever a good thing I did for myself it was to get out of my marriage - I didn't want to break my vows and I guess in the end I didn't - it was my husband who wanted to get divorced to remarry -

The weather is much cooler - March seemed to last a long time - even though I was away for a week - and we had some hot weather and thunder

I hope you are not too close to the floods and haven't had a power outage over the last few days -

Dec

I had a ride from hell from a a taxi driver yesterday - it's the worst thing that happened yesterday so it could be worse and I will be sending a formal complaint - but he drove like a lunatic

Like to fast then hitting the brake and not going where I was telling him -

My back hurts most days - Fridays are harder because I go shopping and get tense in the supermarket - yes - I have been picked up off the floor and carted off to hospital - something I never plan and do everything to avoid

Pain - thank goodness I was outside my doctor's clinic - I staggered inside and my doctor was ready to see me straight away - how lucky is that???????

He gave me and injection for the pain but it's still touch - my back I mean -

You don't have to be paranoid to know you are being picked on - or that your situation is not a good one

Still sore this morning - enough said

Dec

Sorry to hear it @Owlunar ..... yeah it sucks .... I got an uber driver the other day who was snuffling and sneezing everywhere .... na blowing his nose into his hand and wiping it on his pants-leg .... 😳:face_with_rolling_eyes:😝

I had made the mistake of sitting in the front seat .... never again .... 😡

Hi @BlueBay@Faith-and-Hopeand @Former-Member

We have all had rides from hell it seems - because I don't drive anymore I need to use taxis and I use them a lot and I sit in the front seat - sitting on top of the rear wheel is a bad place for my spine

Eek - some drivers are really horrible but I have to say that I don't have much trouble - but I forget who it was who had the taxi driver rubbing his snotty hands on his trouser legs - I had one like that one - really bad cold and I was seeing a surgeon and I needed to go and wash my face and hands before I saw my surgeon and the receptionist gave me a clean hand towel to dry my face - yuk - horrible

I know you would help if you could BB - you have a lot on your plate - and Teej - I know it is hard to write something not negative - but you did here and I appreciate that - I appreciate everyone's kind thoughts

And as this day continues I am feeling okay - I think it was lucky that my doctor was ready to see me straight away and gave me that shot - it made a difference

But considering how much I use taxis I don't have that much trouble - but there has been trouble and it's unavoidable to run up against creeps at times

Thanks everyone

Dec

Oh no @Dec that is terrible

hello @BlueBay, @Faith-and-Hope, @Former-Member

how is today going x

we worked all this morning mowing lawns , as the last few day have been 37 degrees , very hot and still - they thought we were in for another cyclone , a bit cooler today

Got a big headache this afternoon , still getting over the bladder infection

Hi @Former-Member

Many thanks for your kind thoughts - it does sound as if you have more than the usual amount of insight into my past with my son - you have a troubled son yourself

Yes - you are right - we are here to guide them - not to insist on their behaviour. We are supposed to set certain standards during their early years - to give them instructions in life-behaviour - but once the reach different stages in their development they must make decisions for themselves - and at 16 young people reach a stage where they become legally responsible for some of their choices - and this can be very hards for us as parents

I couldn't find your message under Sleeping too much - so I thought I would right my answer here - I have been out of focus today - whether it's because I feel my memories so much through these months until the middle of July - or whether it's the weather or because we put the clocks back last night - I am never in focus for about a week after all of this

My son never understood the limits - never really understood borders - I believe along with ADHD and ADD and certain physical uncordination he was also BPD - really hard for him - I didn't understand his world

One thing time has taught me that I will feel like this off and on for the next few months - during the time he was in prison before he died - but I will pull out of it after that and be fine for the rest of the time - except for the ups-and-downs that occur in everyone's life

Thanks again for your message

Dec