Life can be a Pain

Thanks @utopia

I will not let this mess with my head but yeah - I feel rather p^^d-off and I allowed to be and it will wear off

Perhaps we can allow ourselves to feel what we feel knowing it will wear off is a part of healing - mmm yeah!

That stuff about bi-polar - being disdiagnosed for work-cover - that is so bad - I was misdiagnosed with the same thing and I was not and took medication that took the world away for years - I was helped to quarter-down with a psychologist - the one who died - and as I was each week taking less and less of this medication the world came back and it was really good that it happened

But in your case - it was worse because of being on work-cover - I remember bits of your story and it seems you have been stuffed around quite a lot with all of this and none of it your fault either and you are right

that is cruel

And it causes anxiety and

It won't go away

It's on your record

I supposed that's what's going through my head - I refused to pay that account and it seems this is already going to be used against me but hey - yeah - I can afford to pay my own solicitor about this but it will be what it will and it is likely to be interesting

And I will have to think hard about seeing someone else - the psychologist I saw after my son died died himself - and he was so good about seeing me whenever I needed to - which was a lot at first but tapered off over time -

So yes - I will let it out - worse things have happened

Also - I remembered what you wrote about my searching for 10 years for my son's birth-mother - amazing to remember - it was so hard then - I didn't spend every minute of every day on but rather something I would rest about then get back to it and suddenly - she was looking for me!

I had brief contact with her through a third person - I thought about whether I wanted to know her but we had a child in common and I had done my best - though I wrote to her and sent her photographs I never did anything else except have my son including in the Aboriginal Stats - and that was what I needed to do - I have never stopped thinking about her though - which is something she doesn't know about

Thanks for being there Utopia - I will be okay but it will sting for a bit

Dec

ohhhh @Owlunar, sitting with you and sending you lots of hugs my friend

Hi @Former-Memberand @Shaz51

Thanks so much - I watched something I recorded on TV earlier and ate my dinner and feel a bit better but really tired - it has been too much lately and I certainly did not need anyone to write distortions of my truth

I really opened up to her - and I will be less inclined to do that in the future - and that registered letter took a long time to get to her - not good that - registered mail is not what it should be time-wise but safer than express

Grouch

Yes @Former-Member - definitely sadistic person there - a sadistic psychologist - we give them the ammo in good faith - zapp!!!

I feel I need to mentioned to you not to drive if you are taking that stronger analgesia - it would be better if your Dad could pay for the taxi - taking him out for his birthday sounds really pleasant. What have you got in mind?

Dec

I think the report from the psychologist is yet another reason why you made the right decision not to return @Owlunar You are allowed to be unhappy and with the pain you have been in it is no wonder you feel that way!

So glad you have vented about all this Dec - sometimes we just need to get things out and know that what we are feeling is validated.

Hugs

Hi @Former-Member How are you travelling?

Sounds super-sucky @Owlunar ..... 😡 ..... having been misrepresented in my own situation, O really feel for you.

I have a great psychologist.

He mistook me for a highly anxious personality at our first meeting, and sent me home with a reference book to read ..... but when I went through it, it clearly wasn’t me ..... so I took it back and told him so ..... and then took four months to tell him about our circumstances, asking as I went along, who wouldn’t be highly anxious under these circumstances .... personality types aside ?!

I know you have been “once burned” ..... but hopefully you can get over the “twice shy” and try again when you’re ready, hopefully scoring a psych who is a good match for you, and can offer an appropriate report that overwrites this dud one.

Hugs ❤️

Hi @Zoe7

Yes - although I was prepared to continue with this psychologist the last time I did question if it was worth digging around in the grave of my past - I can cry about it but I had to keep my eye on the time and felt the need to cut short and ask for the chance to centre myself toward the end of the session

Actually I think she was only working one day a week - no wonder it was inconvenient that I did not attend - and she never answered my letter - definitely not a good scene

I have to think if I want to go there again - but if I do see the next psychogist it will psychologist No. 5. Do I want to go into all of this again? Am I prepared to see someone who might be cancelling appointments because she has her kids on holidays - oh dear - I really don't know - something to file to think about because my Tassie rellies have been uncontactable and I am concerned but done all I can for now.

Being on-line here tonight has been good - I have let my emotions out and I am really tired - I will be going to bed soon -

Yes - I am allowed to be uhappy and with what I have had happening including increased pain and I have been validated

Thanks Zoe - I wish you the best

Dec