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Life challenges

Life challenges

So I wanted to share a bit about myself and what I'm facing in life.

I've had health issues throughout my life things like arthritis, scoliosis, heart problems etc. Things that have mostly been able to be treated with medications. But last year I was diagnosed with cancer and it's been a hell of a fight ever since. I've undergone several surgeries, chemotherapy, radiation therapy and things were looking ok. But recently I was told that the cancer had spread and I'm probably not going to make it to see my 50th birthday which for me is less than 3 years away.

I haven't got any support around me and this information has been hard for me to process. Whilst I knew my life was on borrowed time it never really sunk in until I was sat down and told the facts.

As you can imagine with everything I've gone through during my life I suffer from mental health issues and recently that's become alot worse. For me I don't want to get to that point where my body is shutting down.

I don't like not being in control but at the moment everything is out of my control, I'm reliant on medical teams, medications, other people trying to work out what the next step is. I'm unsure whether I want to put my body through more chemo or radiation therapy or whether to just let this ride its course. Even doing it it's only going to buy me a little bit more time so is it really worth it or do I just try to enjoy what time I have left.

Anyway that's a bit of my story and what I'm facing. Thanks for reading.

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@Hopeandlove @Till23 @rav3n @MJG017 @tyme

 

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Thank you @rav3n. You don't know how much it means to me to have you all here supporting me and sending me love. Knowing that I'm cared for even though I'm not going to be around for that much longer, it means so much. 💙

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@Hopeandlove here it is before it goes on the water tomorrow

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You know what @Hopeandlove ? This is a thread I will cherish FOREVER.

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@Till23 beautiful 💙

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@tyme thank you 💙.

I'm scared of not being here anymore and the unknown, but I'm also at peace knowing that I'm surrounded with the love and support here 💙.

Staff are regularly coming to just sit with me and hold my hand letting me know that I'm not alone, truth is I don't feel alone knowing you are all here 💙.

@Till23 @Oaktree @rav3n @MJG017 @Former-Member @Ru-bee

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Hugs @Hopeandlove .

When you feel up to it, feel free to write us a letter to share with SANE - of course, only if you feel up to it.

I want to keep it forever, but I also want to share what a privilege it is to be beside you at this time.

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@Hopeandlove

I'm glad you have some people there to sit with youin person as well. They must be incredible people found what they do for a job. It's hard to imagine being in better, kinder hands.

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Dearest @Hopeandlove

I don't think I've ever felt so included with such a wonder group of people. Thank you. You are your namesake "Hopeandlove".

Try and get some rest now. Don't worry about replying just close your eyes and rest.

Love

Snuggles ☺️

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Thank you @Former-Member .

Truth is I'm scared to close my eyes.

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