Don’t want to accept the pain

@creative_writer you should see... my room has blackout curtains, towels up across any gaps, and every single little electronic light is covered.... 😅 Yes I believe once again, we are very similar!!

That's a good question!! Hmm well let's break it down.

Social anxiety I'd argue is a more biological process - we are wired to want to belong, to behave in the ways that our social group finds acceptable so that we don't get booted to die alone in the wilds.

However, it would make sense that this biological wiring could have influenced the way culutures develop! What do you think?

@creative_writer heck yeah, geeky solutions!! We love it!!

Hmmm... you know, I wonder if the reason I am able to care so little about the opinions of most is because I have a small group of people about whose opinions I care IMMENSELY (my friends, family, and colleagues). I know you've got that too but I get the sense that you don't necessarily feel like you truly belong. So there's a possibility that you might not stay with those groups, so you also have to continually assess the potential of finding connection and belonging with the majority of folks around you outside of your current social group.

Does that make sense? And also please do tell me if I am wrong!! I know it's assumptive of me to make claims about your emotional experiences!

@creative_writer aye perhaps your honour is something that you can give an empowered definition to - like 'it is about how you choose to give thanks to god, and how you act with kindness and empathy to those around you, that makes you an honourable person'!!

@creative_writer I think it's an ND thing? Maybe but could also look into OCD.

But yeah I've had phrases that won't leave my brain alone. For like a year, I'd have at various points of my day the phrase 'WU TANG CLAN AIN'T NOTHING TO F%$K WITH' pop into my head... I've never listened to Wu Tang Clan in my life 🤣

Sometimes it helps to try to replace the not so fun ones with better ones. That's where mantras and chanting and affirmations can come in! Ooh or prayer?