Invisible and insignificant

Does anyone else ever feel invisible and insignificant?

Like you just don't matter, you could disappear and noone would even notice that you were gone.

Reaching out to get help only to be ignored and made to feel like your not worth anything.

To be told that you don't matter, your feelings don't matter, your existence is nothing but a burden on society.

I feel like i could stand in a crowd and scream at the top of my lungs and not one person would notice me, not one person would turn around to see what's going on.

I feel invisible, I feel like I'm insignificant, I feel like i don't matter, I feel worthless, I feel like such a failure.

It hurts so much to feel like this. Watching people happy and laughing with others. I question myself, why can't I have that, why can't I just have a friend, why can't I matter to someone, why can't I feel something other than pain and suffering.

Every day I fight to be heard, I fight to get help, I fight to stay alive, to keep my heart beating to keep breathing. But for what I'm not even sure anymore.