I’m bored.. + some random thoughts

@Blackcloud i got my fingers crossed for you!! yeah it's tough with subjects, even scoring 50% is a great achievement, it's not always easy with essays n stuff.

do you have plans for the weekend?

@rav3n nah i dont really have anything planned for the weekend, though its gonna be like 29/30 degrees tomorrow and Sunday which.... y'know 😕 but I hope I can work on my assignments, including starting my very last drawing for the current portfolio assignment before its due, even if that means that I'll have to go to the same public library that's close to where I live now a lot of the times lol

oh since last night, i was lowkey thinking of perhaps i should start seeing a counsellor thats diagnosed with autism herself so that you know...I can at least have someone I can talk to about my issues, especially when they themselves have a diagnosed ND condition - same condition as I have. her sessions are $60 for a 30 minute session and $100 for a 50 minute session lmao. i keep thinking and worrying about my future in terms of the fact that I'll end up being alone throughout my whole life without having any in real life support system. but then at the same time, i highly doubt that i'll be able to have anyone in my life in the future and that it'll just all be the same as it has always been throughout my whole life, even in the future too....

Any of you up for a chat this evening? I’m just chilling but right now I’m not feeling the greatest

@Appleblossom @MissGremlin

Hi @Jynx how you doing? I never thought you would come here during weekends haha 😛

Hello @Blackcloud, I'm around. Happy to chat to you.

Hi @MissGremlin @I’m glad you’re around!! I’m chilling in bed right now but not really feeling the best. I really wish I can get myself to buy ingredients and cook my own food but with the size of the kitchen of the accomodation I live at (the kitchen is like way too small for me to do everything and do all the cooking duties efficiently), it’s not possible for me to do that and it makes me a bit upset thinking about it.😒

@Blackcloud sorry to hear that you're not feeling the best. I haven't been around for the last few days so was trying to catch up on anything I've missed but it's a bit too much to go through. That would be very frustrating not having enough room to do things in the kitchen.

@MissGremlin totally understand and valid, I feel the same way.

whenever I do need someone to talk to then I would want to either come on here or use any other mental health service where I can easily talk to someone about since I don’t have any in real life friends or support people I can rely on on a daily basis.

It’s very frustrating for sure. I hope for the next accomodation I’ll move into though would have a more right-sized kitchen. I kind of hate having to keep relying on the healthy meal delivery services to order the ready-to-eat microwaveable meals 😒

@Blackcloud yes it's nice to be able to come here to chat to people. I've just been shutting down completely, not worth bothering people with my problems. Really hope that you can find those connections someday soon so you can build some friendships.

Would definitely be good to have a decent sized kitchen so you can do your own cooking. Fingers crossed you are able to find some other accommodation in the near future. Couldn't imagine having to have ready-to-eat microwave meals, I can't eat them myself.

@MissGremlin that’s totally fair enough, we all have our own ways of dealing with things. 🙂 I highly doubt I’ll be able to have any real life connections at anytime in the future. People keep telling me that things get better when I know that it actually doesnt. I just wish they can put themselves into my shoes for that before they tell me that it gets better. Everytime they tell me that I always asked in my head “how?”

yeah I’m actually gonna be moving to another accomodation in June so that’s kinda exciting! Can’t wait to see what the room is actually like in person!