I’m bored.. + some random thoughts

@rav3n They did allow me the opportunity to send them an email in case I need to write a draft for a post that I think might be breaching the guidelines (but that was sooo long ago) - so basically email them the draft and they’ll check to see if they can approve it or not. But in cases like this one, I didn’t think that it would breach the guidelines only because I said that therapy was a waste of time and waste of spending money for, like seriously? :face_with_rolling_eyes:😑 if I get a third warning then it’ll result in me getting a permanent ban. I have been banned from there before so, but I did get them to unban me after I wrote a long detailed email to them to show how sorry I was for my past actions and words that breached the guidelines in the community, and I promised them that I would follow all the guidelines they’ve outlined. I’m kinda angry right now.

@Blackcloud oh good that they at least provided you the option! haha yep, even on our forums that particular sentence might've been edited or removed 😅 totally fair if you find it a waste of money tho!! therapy's not for everyone, we all got different preferences.

that's tough being banned, especially when i see that you're just tryna connect. the guidelines can be quite tricky to adhere to, especially when you're caught up in the moment and just wanna vent, it's hard to focus on wording. also i really admire that you wrote to them and apologised, and asked for another chance - you definitely deserve a chance to try again.

It’s been a bit of a while since I’ve engaged here in the forums. Been busy and keeping up to date with the assignments I’m currently working on.

Well since last night I’ve had some thoughts about my future - not in terms of career, but more like in terms of, living by myself at an apartment (that’s not a student accomodation) since so far I’ve found that living in a student accomodation is much safer than living in an apartment (because for apartment there’s no reception and no security guards around) and I’ve been kinda or lowkey worried about living alone at an apartment (if I move to a social/public housing) because of thoughts such as when you sometimes have strangers coming to knock your door, but also when you sometimes have a resident that would press your door number on the apartment telecom downstairs (to get you to open the door for them at ground floor) infront of ground floor instead of someone that lives with you press it. You also get fire alarms activated that would mainly happen during the night that would happen for at least once a year, and all the lights automatically turn off at the same time and an automated message of a person speaking would occur through the apartment phone that you own (that’s linked to the apartment telecom downstairs). Those are what scare me most about living alone at a place that’s not a student accomodation.

@PeppyPatti @MissGremlin @MJG017 @rav3n @Jynx @Appleblossom

Good you are ticking boxes uni...wise.

@Blackcloud

I never lived in official student accommodation but did share houses from the uni notice board when I first left home. But I also lived in single bedroom flat for a while.... There are pros and cons with most life choices. None will be perfect, but your resilience may improve as you have different experiences. I rarely had trouble but life does have its ups and downs.

Good you are thinking beyond and ahead. Keep up the good work.

Apple

Thanks @Appleblossom I’m glad that your experiences has been good 🤗🫂❤️

Trying to reassure you a bit @Blackcloud but can't promise everyone is good....

I understand @Appleblossom it’s kind of a distracting thought that I have as I care more about my own safety than anything else, especially as females we all gotta be very careful..

Yes @Blackcloud I never really had a safe base cos of all the moves and orphanages etc. I often didn't know how risky things were. I did have one fellow climb into my bed in a shared 2 bedroom flat and I asked him to get out and leave. So I do know what you mean. But I am concerned that some Young people miss out on living their full potential through fear of what might happen. It's a balance. All the student accommodation when I was young were expensive private colleges, so I wasn't really rash, just trying to live within my means. Take your time... Step at a time

@rav3n sigh....just had another chat with a counsellor today but things didn't go well between her and I either. the problem is she doesnt even talk much which makes our convo during the session even more awkward and difficult for me to wanting to continue on with the session.🤦‍♀️ as much as I wanna be honest to her about it but I feel that'd be unprofessional of me as someone whose passionate about pursuing mental health/psychology to be straightforward about it to someone whose already working at my desired related field....

edit: nevermind I just ended the convo with "you really have nothing much to say, do you?? im gonna end this convo now. this is so awkward. goodbye" and then I logged out of my account.

I lowkey feel like crying...🥲

@Appleblossom What the heck that must’ve been so frightening having a guy to climb into your bed. Wait so did he climb into your bedroom window from outside to get into your bed or? Cause if that’s the case then I can imagine how really frightening and unsafe that is! 😮

I’m even concerned about living on my own at an apartment that’s not a student accomodation, considering that the police here in Australia don’t do anything to protect us from all these bad people…. hence our legal system here overall is a joke when it comes to police dealing with individuals that do actual criminal stuff, like robbery for example… 😕