I’m bored.. + some random thoughts

@Blackcloud i used to have that routine where I was nocturnal, awake all night then go to bed about 5-6am and sleep all day 😂.

I'm lucky to get 2-3 hours sleep and night, it takes me forever to fall asleep but then I only sleep for no more than 30 minutes before I wake up having a panic attack and that lasts a good hour or 2 before it eases and I can try to go back to sleep. It's such a vicious cycle and I'm always feeling exhausted.

Thoughts at night time are the worst and it's horrible not being able to just switch off to get that much needed rest.

@MissGremlin getting some adequate sleep at night is never easy for us, hey? 😕

do you also have any other plans to wrap up for today? I think after this chat I'm just gonna be watching YouTube as usual since I haven't been able to purchase some supplies for this current project that we're doing for our current assessment lol

good thing I've been able to work on another assignment for art history which is an image analysis, since its only just doing it on my laptop whilst in my desk or in my bed and nothing else.

Any text-based assessments (including essays) is very/really difficult and a no-no though, so I'm doing my best to get through it all. 😅 Thankfully I still have like I think a total of 200 something words left that I need to write since for this analysis you're required to write at least a total of 800 words.

@Blackcloud it's definitely not easy that's for sure.

I'm just sitting on my bed thinking about doing my colouring. But the more I look at it the less I'm feeling like actually doing it. Seems my motivation has up and left me. I've got music playing aswell at the moment not that I'm actually listening to it but it's on 😂.

Glad you have at least been able to work on something. Definitely give yourself that time to recover before you tackle the text based assessments.

@MissGremlin right now im currently (trying to) work on my image analysis written assessment but looking at the rubric that we've been given, I do think/feel that I'm gonna get a fail or at least like around the 50% range for the mark. If I can get at least 50% in total then thats good since 50% is the minimum of the pass grade. Anything that's lower than 50% though is a fail mark.

I'm not feeling quite happy with it since I'm still struggling with what else to even write/come up with even just based on resources I'm relying on as references, and I currently have like around 190-ish more words left to complete the required word count. 😒

@rav3n

@Blackcloud oh that's tough, hopefully you can at least get that 50%. Is it just a mental block on not knowing what to write?

@Blackcloud trying to fill up the word count can be annoying!! obviously i don't know your assignment/rubrics and the expectation your marker has but in the past when i've wanted to fill up the word count for essays/analyses i think about these points to include

• did i talk about the historical/social/cultural context of the image?
• did i research the author/artist and learn about how their life or interests impact their piece? what inspired the author/artist to create this piece?
• for images - what colours and strokes were used? what does it mean? what emotions do they invoke?
• what's my own interpretation of the image, how does it make me feel? what do i think - are there evidence to support or contradict my thoughts.
• what sort of medium did they use and why?

not sure if that's helpful or not, but thought i'd suggest those reflection questions to help you find something to fill the word count with! good luck!

@MissGremlin yeah, its most likely the mental block of not knowing what to write 😕

@rav3n I've already covered pretty much all of the dot points you've listed on my draft, though the third dot point I am struggling to identify/come up with exact words on what sort of strokes on the painting that the author/artist has used exactly 😂 our image analysis assessment requires us to write up a formal&iconographical analysis on one (400 words) and then a contextual analysis (also 400 words) on another, and both sections do provide like some questions and/or an explanation to help guide you on what you need to write about. I'm just not sure what to really write next for the remaining 190 ish words, despite trying my hardest to come up with my own words for other parts that I've researched. ahhhhh...

by the way I already saw your post about the volunteer role as a crisis supporter, and I really want to thank you for mentioning this to me because you were the first person that has mentioned about it to me so far! 🙂 I've already submitted the application for it this afternoon and am currently in the process of completing my police check for that as I've now reached the pre-start checks stage!

@MissGremlin @rav3n

Today is my 5th day post wisdom teeth removal surgery, and my bottom left cheek (around my bottom left gum area) is still quite sore so I'm not feeling fully 100% yet. I've just sent an email to my lecturer (not for the art history unit, but for the other unit: drawing) regarding to request an extension. I've even included my medical certificate on the email too.

@Blackcloud mental blocks suck.

Hopefully the pain goes away soon for you. Glad you have asked for an extension. Get lots of rest when you can and I hope you are feeling 100% soon ❤️

@rav3n Since then I’ve now come to the conclusion that perhaps I won’t worry about wanting to go to the university (edited by moderator) despite one of their entry requirements for bachelor in fine arts that’s on the University Study category/session which requires you to complete/pass at least 2 relevant (bachelor-level/undergraduate)units. Despite the fact that it’s far from where I live and that I can easily take either the tram or the train (the train is more convenient), I’m genuinely so sick of seeing ticket inspectors targeting and harassing minorities especially Asians. And I know that if they were to target me, asking if they can see my concession or student card, I would already be VERY sick of it all..😑

Also, the thing about moving to the $300s accomodations that’s also quite far from where I currently live at as well, there’s also the inspectors that tend to hang around in that specific train station and some tram stops surrounding that area if I was to take the tram. Because one of the other universities is located around that area, so.

It’s either I would have to move to the other student accomodation ($419p/w) that’s currently 10 mins away (by walk) from the one I currently live at and then enrol myself onto the University nearby to apply for the bachelors degree and do my bachelors in that university instead — the easier option (but the con is the rent cost is $50-70 more than the $300 ones), or I would have to take the hard option — the one I’ve mentioned above.

oh! But then again, I can apply for the bachelor in fine art at the University I’m currently enrolled at, which apparently all of the classes in both this bachelor degree and the undergrad certificate in fine art that I’m currently studying are all online only -whether I choose to move somewhere a bit far or somewhere rather close.

@Blackcloud ughh that's so annoying that the inspectors hang around the same spot!! have you joined those facebook pages about inspectors? my friend's joined the myki inspector one and it sometimes helped her, cos people post when they see a myki inspector at their station so others can avoid the area.

oo defs got a lot of things to consider! and it's good that your classes are all online at the moment, so travel isn't necessary right? i guess it comes down to your budget and inspectors - it's a tough one... do you save money and in rent and start touching on/off regularly? or do you save money on myki/walk to avoid inspectors and pay the extra rent? lots to think about!!