Life and trauma

@Former-Member aww yeah that'd do it! I hope it helped release some stuff outta your system 😊

Woooow it's so intricate!! Can't wait to see the final piece!! You got the colours all picked out?

@Jynx it was good to get a bit out but I held most of it back, i don't know how many times i apologised for crying.

It's very intricate, just using gel pens so it's only 10 colours to work with.

@Former-Member oooh you'll have to be super organised then to ensure no same colours touching! Or that's how I'd be ahaha

I shall bid you goodnight hun, hope you have a chill night!! Catch you next time 💜

@Jynx i just stuffed up so now I've rage quit for the night.

Thanks for the chats. I'm hoping to sleep off this stupid, annoying, painful chest/back/jaw pain. Hope you have a good night. ❤️

@rav3n @Ru-bee @Jynx is anyone around to chat please?

hey @Former-Member i'm making a rare morning appearance hehe

how's your day going so far?

@rav3n mornings suck 😂. But glad to have you here ❤️.

Day has been hectic, had to go out and get a couple of things first thing, then came home to vacuum, clean the bathroom, toilet and do dishes. Now I'm waiting for this inspection which is between 11am-1pm, don't know why it has to be such a big gap. Anxiety is running extremely high, knowing i have to submit the letter after the inspection regarding the rent increase is really getting to me.

How are you going?

that's such a busy start already!! @Former-Member all i did this morning was drink water and have breakfast 😂

glad it's all clean and ready, fingers crossed it's not overwhelming like yesterday. oh i hate when they give a time period like that, like i need a more specific time to manage my anxiety!! well either way, i believe you'll be able to conquer today, i'm here for you 💗 YOU GOT THIS!!

i'm going alright. the car that my sister and i share almost broke down yesterday. i was so embarrassed while driving it, the car wouldn't go more than 20 km/hr... in a 70 zone. i did have my hazard lights on so it's not too bad but yeah... definitely can't use the car again. need to plan the rest of this week's travels and account for public transport times 😅

@rav3n At least you had breakfast and a drink, i can't do breakfast.

Inspection is done, lady came 15 minutes early and caught me off guard, cos that helps the anxiety 😂. Now i have to send this letter in but after talking to her it's not going to change anything 😞.

Oh that's one of my biggest fears, I've broken down a couple of times but have been able to pull over before completely losing power. People get so annoyed with you, it's like do you think I expected to break down 😂. Hope you can sort out the travel plans easily.

@Former-Member i couldn't do breakfasts for a while too. i just had no appetite for the first half of the day. not sure if its because of gym or something else, but i suddenly started to get it back.

omg that was quick!! yeah i wish they'd be better at communicating the time. i guess in a way its better its done early than having to feel that anxious dread for 2 more hours.

i'm so sorry that the lady wasn't able to give you more hope. how about this - you can keep a low expectation about the letter, while we keep the high hopes for you? that way it'll hurt a lil less if things don't go your way?

it's so nerve-wrecking hey! glad you were able to pull over in time. i kept feeling the need to say 'i'm sorry pls overtake me'. but i ended up just avoiding eye contact with everyone hehe. thank youuuu, luckily it isn't a super busy week so i should be good!