Life and trauma

Maybe just see how you go @Former-Member I know the morning has already been really disheartening, what do you think would help you get to your doctors appointment today?

@Ru-bee I'm sitting at my doctors waiting now. It's busy and my anxiety is high. I've got my ear buds in trying to drown out the noise, colouring a picture on my phone but it's all just too much.

Proud of for getting yourself there @Former-Member, just a bit more to go and then you can head back home

Thanks @Ru-bee . I'm back home now. Appointment was just us chatting about random things. Nothing to do with what's going on or how I'm feeling. Just not feeling it today.

hiya @Former-Member sorry to hear you had a rough start to today. hoping today gets brighter for you.

also loved the art you've been posting - the stained glass colouring look so cool!!

Thanks @rav3n . My day has only gotten worse. Trying hard to keep my head above water but really feel like I'm drowning 😞.

Still trying to do my colouring but at the moment I'm pushing through tears trying to see.

@Former-Member that fact that you're trying matters so much more than you think. today was a big day as well, visiting the GP can be emotionally exhausting. sometimes takes our bodies a bit of time to cool back down. sitting with you 💙

@rav3n it wasn't even the doctors appointment that was a problem. It's everything that's happened after. I just can't deal with anything at the moment. Ugh this feeling is too much for me. Really feel like there's a rage inside of me, like inside is lashing out, having a fight internally. But outside I'm just numb, like a statue that can't feel, can't express anything. Don't know if that makes any sense but that's the only way I can describe it. It's not even a way I've felt before.

@Jynx i need hugs 😞

sometimes i feel like that when i'm dealing with feeling anxious and depressed at the same time @Former-Member its almost like the anxious side of me is on overdrive and has so much resentment and regret... yet i felt so exhausted and low, like i don't wanna bother 'feeling' anything cos i've been feeling too much. is that sorta the same with you?

just know that this uncomfy, confusing feeling you feel WILL pass. it's not permanent. i'm sitting with you while it passes through you, you're not alone.