Anxiety is high

Not much on tonight @Jynx I’ve got a headache. Cooking pasta for dinner.
think an early night tonight.
hi @rav3n @tyme

pasta for dinner sounds delicious, i haven't had some in a while @BlueBay do you enjoy cooking?

@BlueBay bet the heat isn't helping!! Mmm pasta.... Oh I gotta think about dinner! Hmmm maybeeeee a sammich tonight.

Honestly I'm with you on the early night!

Hey @rav3n I do enjoy cooking but lately I feel like I’m the only one who will cook. I have to decide what to cook every day. And I’m getting sick of it.

I do ALL the housework daily. I’m not sure hubby appreciates the amount I do. He doesn’t see it.

@BlueBay that sounds so frustrating!! you deserve recognition for your work too. maybe hubby knows you're working hard to look after him and your home, but perhaps he's not good with acknowledging it out loud?

do you have a fav recipe you like to cook?

favourite meals - lasagna, chicken Parma.

He doesn’t even ask how my day is @rav3n

I feel like I’m the maid that keeps the house perfect.
I do get resentful at times. I feel I’m not appreciated.

im stressing a lot tonight. Too many things in my head.

and I’ll be home alone on Sunday. I’ve decided I’m not going to go to cinema. I can’t go in my own. Don’t think there’s much on. I can’t call in friends as they have their hubbies home.
I’ll lock myself at home. Trying not to think.
I never go anywhere for that length of time. Maybe 2hrs if I have a coffee or walk with a friend. Never a whole day like he is. Yes I’m jealous, angry and now resentful.

@Jynx @tyme

Sitting with you my sister 💕 @BlueBay

Thankyou lovely @Shaz51 ❤️ xx

LOVE lasagna! @BlueBay

sounds like there isn't much communication between you and hubby? i'm really sorry to hear that he doesn't ask those everyday 'how are you' questions, would letting hubby know you feel this way help?

it sucks when those negative thoughts resurface and mess around, just know that you deserve to be heard and supported, no matter what. the coffee/walk with friend sounds like a good plan, you deserve to have some fun and relaxation too!

having a big cry at the moment 😥😥

@rav3n @Shaz51 @Jynx @tyme @Ru-bee

Feeling very guilty today reg finances

because I lost my job a few years ago because of my mental health and taking sick leave. I wasn’t reliable is what the manager told me. It was during Covid time.
snd because of this I’m feeling so guilty for not able to work now and contribute money.

Since that horrible day I have completely lost my confidence to work. My self esteem has gone. I’m vulnerable. I don't trust people.

been in a mess is my fault.
😥😥😥