Anxiety is high

Hi @BlueBay

Just logged on and saw your post.

What's been happening?

Sorry yo bother you @Snowie

I just feel really depressed.
saw my dr this morning and just cried when I walked in.
I don’t care about anything anymore

nothing to look forward to

once our finances are low - I’m not sure how to live

worry and stress big part of my day and night

physically sick

I just don’t know what to do anymore

H is irritating me like everything is my fault

scared fear anxious is very real

You're not bothering me @BlueBay

Happy to sit and talk with you.

It does sound like a lot is happening for you at the moment hon.

I'm glad you were able to tell the Dr some of it, that was really brave. Did he mention anything that can be done? Did you say something about him not being your normal Dr?

No doubt you have lots of feelings, all so valid. Sometimes it just feels like we get lost in them, struggling to find a way out, constantly drowning in them.

I'm sorry about H. Is there anyway that you can have some time to yourself at all? Or does he stick close to you?

Have you got anything planned for tonight?

@Snowie

My daughter is coming down at 4pm for dinner and staying until midnight. Possibly staying the night. at least I’ll see my little A
yes no real time to be alone as H hangs around

yes this Dr I saw is not my regular one. I’m seeing my reg one on Thursday. I can’t wait. It feels forever. This Dr gave me our local triage number but I’m not going to ring. What can they do. Not much.

This Dr is really nice caring and said I’m very hard on myself. And I also sabotage myself.

im sorry you have your own stuff you’re dealing with. Hugs.

he had to change my meds as my BP was too high. Which is causing the headaches.

Really worried about the future

@BlueBay I'm glad you will be able to see A today. Hopefully that helps a little.

Does H like to do anything himself? Something he can do alone so you can get some time to yourself. Can you say you've got a headache and need some quiet and alone time or would he follow you?

Thats good that you can see your own Dr on Thursday. Hopefully they will be able to help some.

I totally get not ringing the triage line hon. I'd be the same.

I get worried about the future. It's hard especially if you know what is coming and feel like you can't control it. Is it a few things you are worried about or all of it?

hey @Snowie

I’m worried about everything - life, my health, finances, etc etc

but then I think to the other extreme - where it doesn’t matter if I’m not here anymore because I won’t have to worry about anything. No more bills no nothing. See how my mind goes. It’s bad.

I’ve just gone to bed to lay down for a bit before my daughter arrives.

H is outside. Good!!

It's hard not to worry about the future @BlueBay especially when we don't know what is coming. Our brains automatically go to the worst outcomes.

It's not bad to think that we wouldn't have to worry if we are not here hon. It's ok to have those thoughts. I think most on here would have thought that way at some time. I know I have those thoughts too.

I hope the lay down helps a bit with your headache.

Hugs @BlueBay 🥰

Hello @Snowie , @BPDSurvivor

Hi @Shaz51

How are you? Any plans for tonight?

No plans for tonight @Snowie

How about you?

My hearing aid is so annoying as it keeps cutting out more and more