Santa day

The 25th of December has always been a bad day for me. So much pain associated with it. Traumas from childhood. Year after year in psych wards on the day that they say should be merry.

I'm trying to move past it. To rename and reshape it. It's just Santa doesn't really tend to visit me either.

I know lots of peeps here struggle like I do with holidays, especially this one. The financial burden is high, let alone all the social fatigue, the societal expectations, etc.

I'm boycotting it this year. The 25th doesn't exist in my head. Santa, Jesus, which ever god people worship can get F#ked. They aren't real anyway so why should I devote my time for it.

I'm going to go for a drive, find a quiet beach, have a few beers, and pretend like things are great, eat lots of cheese, get sunburnt, go home, and sleep.