Hi @tyme
Accountability is big for me too. If I have an appt. then I have to leave the house.
However, I feel ok leaving the house for most appointments. I know what to expect, who will be there, where I have to go, etc. Most of the time these appt's are MH related. The only appt. I have that isn't MH is the hairdressers. I've been seeing her for about 5 years now so feel somewhat comfortable with her.
It is the unknown that I get really anxious about. If I go somewhere, will I bump into someone, how many people will be around, will it be too busy, will I have flashback or dissociate, etc...
It is defiantly something I need to work on. Leaving the house brings up a lot of emotions. A lot of the time it takes time, encouraging myself, prn's, self loathing, trying to calm myself down, lots of different things running through my mind.
Then each time something goes wrong when I'm out my agoraphobia gets a little worse.