Am Not Coping

@Zoe7 I am glad I could make you smile.

@Former-Member No pooping on any of the teddy bears! I am well aware that no birds have a sphincter!

I need to disappear now as I've thus far spent all day on the forums. I have to go and do some of that self care stuff that we are all now experts on after Topic Tuesday.

Cat sounds very spoilt getting that warmth always 🙂 and that view also sounds beautiful @Zoe7, I hope one day I'l have a view of something nice rather than a brick wall and the roof of next door, but that's what you get with the renting and studying lifestyle in the city. And it's not all that bad because I can walk to about 20 coffee shops and pubs for a nice view hehe.

I was thinking that maybe a trip to Europe could be fun, we could start in France?! I am thinking that we need all the croissants and baguettes

And completely understand about talking, that's really fine

Oh and I have been good thank you my best friend JUST told me she is getting married soon and asked me to be her maid of honour, so I am feeling very lucky to have been asked that, even though we both don't know what that involves because she is having a really small and low key wedding, more like a dinner, so I guess I just get the excuse to help out as much as I can which sounds fun! xxx

@Phoenix_Rising @Zoe7 I want to jump in that pile of teddies too for a nap 🙂 soooo comfy

good morning @Zoe7 thinking of you

good morning @Phoenix_Rising@BlueBay @utopia @Faith-and-Hope @Adge and everyone else

@Former-Member Both Toby and Cat are very spoilt- they are my babies lol

I did like your description of your living arrangements - particularly the coffee shop and pub views lol If you get sick of the view at home there is not far to go to have a 'look around' and see what else is out there - cheeky!!!

What are you currently studying - pretty sure I haven't asked you that before!

I have been to Europe - only spent 3 months travelling around but would happily go back. Probably not a good idea to start in France presently (I wasn't such a fan when I was there anyway - but that was nearly 20 years ago). I did spend a lot of time in England and Ireland - and if you like pubs they are definitely 2 places to start with lol

Lovely news about your best friend - and the honour for you of being asked to be her maid on honour I suspect that she just wants you by her side throughout the whole 'process' to both help out and to also share in her joy - such a wonderful thing for you both to share

I may access helpline chat today - I will see how the morning goes. I do need to talk a couple of things out but still reluctant to put them on here and ask for that support atm - see how I am travelling a little later

Hope there is light in your day and you have plenty of reasons to smile...

hopefully this will get you started...

Morning my beautiful cocky friend @utopia

I did finally get sleep last night - nearly 9 hours - yea! I am still a little tired today but that is to be expected considerably the lack of sleep and the rollercoaster I have been on for a few days now. Today is a case of putting one foot in front of the other and seeing where it leads me (probably not too far before I collapse but trying to stay a bit more positive). I still have the dreaded headache and am being realistic that doing too much not only makes that worse but also exhausts me - which in turn affects the level of my mood. It is really difficult explaining this to people - I don't have any energy and need to be able to get moving to gain some energy - but just doing that makes me too tired to think straight and I begin the spiral down again - it really is a catch 22 situation and a long, slow process - I really don't think the people around me (in the non-virtual world) understand it at all!!

The 'issues' I need to deal with are probably best done in my own head and away from the forum - still struggling with that 'white noise' complicating my thoughts and emotions Staying away seems to be the only solution my friend @utopia - another catch 22 situation - damed if I do, damned if I don't!!! - too hard!!!!

I completely get the problem with the sleep patterns - *no shite @utopia says in her head in response to this really obvious statement lol* I was getting up at the same time - fur babies needing to be fed. It is the 'getting to sleep' part that is harder said than done. I usually know quite early on if the meds are not working well enough to override my thought processes and fears and that sleep will be problemmatic or impossible. It ceratinly has got a lot better but still a long way to go. Do whatever you need to do to have this working for you - we both know what a massive difference tiredness and exhaustion can have on how we are feeling.

I hope your appointment with the health nurse goes ok. Talk to you soon my wonderful friend.

Zoe