Am Not Coping

Yep @utopia Can't manage to do anything today

I am so glad you got an appointment. Hopefully they can fix your teeth and take away the pain really quickly and youo can start feeling a bit better. It really is a vicious cycle - pain heightens depression heightens pain etc. etc.

My GP has given me a script for my pain meds that hopefully won't make me feel so sick - only happens occassionally - but she doesn't want to take the risk at the moment because of exactly that kind of cycle. That is when I don't remember what I have actually taken - or if I've taken anything - and it becomes a risk. I also need to try and remember to write down times and amounts of meds so I can hopefully keep track myself. The riskiest time is during the night when I get up (or am starting to 'space out') and am only slightly awake and really don't think about what I've already taken.

Toby is all white like Abbey. We know he loves the beach and the sand but he also loves playing with the water from the hose and will then he will roll around in the dirt - little bugger takes a lot of looking after - but don't care - love my little buddy so much!!!

I can't see my psychologist again until at least the 14 Feb. Can't pay for the private sessions at the moment and not sure if I can pay the medicare gap then either. It really is just a waiting game until mu GP sorts things out for me.

Goodluck at the dentist - hope it all goes well and your tooth is fixed and you are pain free quickly.

Love to you and all your family (human and furry)

@Zoe7 and @utopia

Utopia - I guess you are at the dentist now and I will be waiting to hear how you went

And Zoe - it is hard waiting for financial help - and it may take a while to get it - but I am pretty sure that you will get the money backdated from when you applied - not that it helps you right now

But I wish you both all the best and it is great the way you are helping each other out

Dec

@Decadian Yes it will be backdated but so worried about how I'm going to get by in the interim. I'll leave it in the hands of my GP for now -she is doing whatever she can to speed up the process.

Yes @utopia has been a great support for me. There have also been many others over the last few weeks.

@Faith-and-Hope has kept me company and kept me going throughout those nights that I have been really struggling.

And messages from others, including yourself, have been extremely important for me to know I have support around. Even though it doesn't always feel like it when I am really low - it does matter to me.

I am glad it will be backdated @Zoe7 - but yeah - how do you cope in the meantime

Have you been able to get any food vouchers - and with things like rent and utilities - how are you coping with those items

Making you wait like this with no income is really tough - I know - I went through this myself and it tore me up - I did have some money saved but I went right through that in a few weeks

I wish I could send you some money - alas that's impossible - I will be thinking of you about this -

Dec

@Decadian All my savings are gone. I had my 'just in cae' fund that has been spent on vet bills. Have to take my little boy to the vet tomorrow - hoping he won't need an operation Hopefully my vet will hold over payment for me for a while - she's really lovely and has know me for a long time so I am not afraid to ask.

I need to see my bank about my mortgage - just haven't had the energy. Will wait until I see my GP tomorrow to see how far she has got with everything for me. Then I can think a bit more about the next steps I take. I have enough food for now - probably because I haven't been eating much. I know this is not good for me but everytime I eat I feel really sick so it's a vicious cycle.

The rest of the bills coming in I'll deal with later - too much to think about all at once.

Your so sweet @Decadian I wouldn't take your money anyway - way too independent for that - even now when I have nothing - there are people much worse off in the world! It is stressful but I'll manage somehow xxx

@utopia Can't believe they pulled a tooth and didn't give you anything stronger!! I'd send you some of mine but - whoops none left!!!!!! and GP won't give me anything as strong for now - just in case!!!!

You could buy some of those false teeth lollies for now to give yourself a nice smile LOL

My bank manager is near where I work (not at the moment LOL) and she is really nice. I think I'll just wait a bit longer - my next payment isn't until next month so I have a bit of time for that. I am really hoping it will all be sorted before that and I won't have to see her at all.

Toby and Abbey would have a great time in the mud then we'd have to bath both of them -and then we'd be covered in mud!!!!!

Hope you are relaxing and having a good snooze.

Zoe

Oh @utopia Whisky as a painkiller LOL - why doesn't that surprise me - you naughty little Cocky!!!!

Bugger the dogs going to play in the mud and swim in dams - they can stay home and we could go (maybe we'd take them with us - who am I kidding I wouldn't leave my little buddy - he goes everywhere with me).

Just read your post on Dec's thread about your Mum - good resource for pain meds then! She must be a pretty strong woman to deal with that (and with you LOL LOL LOL - now I'm just being cheeky!!!)

Hope you don't have too much pain in your gum - eating will be a bit of a problem - definitely no lolly teeth or his mates for a while!!