Am Not Coping

Yes we take those days @Zoe7

You really are achieving a lot today hun. You should be proud of yourself.

Hi @Zoe7

You do have a lot of end-of-the-year stuff happening - I wonder why it has to be so chaotic finishing it up. It's hard to imagine that something could be done earlier but then - then reports on each child have to be done and it might be hard to do it practically during the term - I remember how the end of the year felt as a child who really went to school to learn - and at the end of the year nothing was happening in the classroom. I seem to remember when my kids were at school they started preparing for the next year. Things do change

About your friend's memorial - it will sad and difficult - imo Rites of Passage are important and we need to express our thoughts and memories for ourselves to be able to move on as well as giving the deceased the time they deserve - well said - and I am glad you little dog can go too - that will assist you - your living comfort-blanket - good

Toxic people - yes - I believe in rising above them. My brother took himself away from the family and for whatever reason my siblings got back together - and my sister is very careless with the truth and in earlier years got me into a lot of trouble. As you say - staying there is no need to stay with people who take no account of how painful their existance can be and eventually they will either fall on their sword or failing that - endure the bed they are busy making for themselves and they can do all of this without us. I am sure of it

Knowing my situation is different I still know how badly we can feel over such people. I reallly care and wish you the best

Dec

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie Another class done and drying - shouldn't take too long in this heat so expect to start the next class in about an hour. Fur babies fed and snoozing and the final load of washing pegged out - that should also be dry and be able to get in soon with the heat outside.

Need to make the bed and vacuum before I do the next class then will settle in with Tobes for the evening and watch some more of my show online before doing the last class for today. Very much hoping to be in bed early as I need to be at work early to get organised before an 8am meeting. One week to get through now and I want the final 2 days with the kids to be happy and joyful not stressed with things left to do ...but we have meetings tomorrow and Tuesday after school as well so will have to work extra hard to get things done quicker ...see how I go.

Hoping you time with Tobes is relaxing @Zoe7

You are smashing goals hun 😊

@Owlunar The last few weeks are often chaotic but especially the case this year with things needing to be done that we didn't know had to be until last week. There were a couple of learning plans we had to write as a result of testing with a couple of our kids - unfortunately that was not know earlier - and they are many pages long so it took time. These were on top of the usual reports and we have to have meetings with their parents as well - so a lot to organise. The final parent meeting is tomorrow morning so after that it should be all locked in. Having both the class and Art also means I have a lot of 'finishing up' and getting things organised for each. We do not have a room for Art so I go from class to class - that also means we have nowhere presently to store things but will be working with class teachers next year to find a space in each classroom ...my office (and dining room) looks like a cyclone has hit it with so many things to finish and hand back ...but getting there.

I did take Toby to the memorial and thank goodness because I really did not fit there. I knew no-one at all and felt really out of place without his sister being there. I will find a way to work through it but do not have the mental or emotional strength right now to try ...that too will have to come in time.

Yes toxic people are not worth the time or energy when we have to look after ourselves first. I find it quite sad though that those type of people do not get the harm they cause ...or worst - do and just do not care. It is also often the sweet and innocent 'looking' ones that can cause the most damage - they have an ability to suck people in on one hand whilst subversively hurting people on the other hand - and it is entirely calculated and intentional ...but that shows their true character and Yes they make their own bed in the process. Not my problem though - that is for them to deal with when that time comes. I won't say I will be rejoicing when that happens but I won't have any sympathy either - sometimes those people need a good dose of reality to change their ways ...we can hope 🤞

I do hope you are doing okay my friend - it has been a while since I have seen you or chatted here so it is a lovely suprise to see you here today - as it always is catching up with you. Hugs and hugs and hugs

Sounding good @Zoe7 ..... but please be careful with your energy levels 💞. Glad you are factoring in your favourite show 👍

Morning @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7

not long to go now @Zoe7 , hoping today goes well for you

Morning @Zoe7 @Snowie @@and anyone else around 👋💕☕️ ..... sitting with an iced coffee to start the day.

All the best for today from me too @Zoe7 ....... nearly there 🌷

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie Was a good day today. The kids were excited to get their Art back so all the effort so far was worth it. Still 4 classes to go but can do that over the next 2 nights then have Wednesday night to put together all the things for my class for their final day on Thursday.

I actually slept for about 6 hours last night - longest in a row for weeks. The nightmares have diminished again too so the meds must be working ...that is a huge relief - still not gone completely but not as severe or vivid as they have been.

It has been very warm today so energy zapping but home now, fur babies fed, washing in and folded and time to sit for a few minutes to relax before I get dinner. Then back into work and planning on as early a night as I can get.

I hope you have both had some good in your days too. Hugs and hugs

@Zoe7 glad the kids were excited. Nothing better then seeing the smiles on their faces 😊

That was good that you got some sleep last night, hopefully it continues that way for you.

Hoping you get what you need to done tonight.