Am Not Coping

Hey gorgeous girl - lovely to see you @Snowie I am not going to ask how you are because I have a feeling it is not great and you would rather not talk about you - but here if you want to unload Hon

Just picked up Cat's chemo meds. I only have to give them to her every 3 days but she has others daily at the moment too. Also have tabs for Toby - one in the morning and one twice a day so with all mine it really is like a pharmacy at my place. I have had to put everythin on the calendar otherwise I will get everything mixed up Both fur babies need to go back to the vet in 10 days so I will have to book those in too. I can do that online now though so that makes it easier.

Settling in now to continue to rest (sooo tired today) before I watch the footy tonight.

What are you up to today?

It certainly is like a pharmacy at your place @Zoe7 I hope you, Tobes and Cat are improving. You have been through so much lately and have coped with everything so well. I read that you had a sleep this afternoon, you must have really needed it. Hopefully you can settle in for the night and enjoy watching the footy.

I haven't been up to much today or the last few days. Just been trying to get through the days as safely as I can.

Slept for just over 3 hours @Snowie It has definitely caught up to me all the appointments and vet visits this week. I certainly do not feel like I have had a break either so will need to pace myself back at work as much as I can. Luckily the first 2 days are Art then one day on class before our public holiday Thursday. I do need to get to the tip tomorrow or Sunday - planning on going early tomorrow as soon as they open so it is out of the way. There is more of the garden I want to do but I still need to be careful with my hand. It is going to take several more weeks until I can use it as normal and my finger on my other hand maybe another 2 months. It is still slightly swollen and I cannot bend it properly - part of that is using it too much but I had no choice with my other hand being out of action

I am really pleased you have checked in Hon. I was worried for you but I also know you are a smart and capable women and would do what you needed to get through. You are stronger than you realise but I know that is little consolation when you feel so down ...so sending you a little extra love and strength this afternoon 💜💙💚🧡💛😘

You must have needed the sleep hon, and I am sure Tobes would have liked it too 😉 You certainly have gone through a lot these past few weeks, I am sure it feels like you haven't had a break.

Hopefully going back to work gives you a bit of a break!! I am sure the kids will love seeing you and enjoy being back at school with you.

Thanks for the extra love @Zoe7 I have an appointment with my psych on Monday so just trying to last till then. Unfortunately it is only by video call, will be glad when they can be back to face to face appointments.

Video call does make it so much harder @Snowie My pdoc made sure all our appointments are face-to-face (she could have two a day) because she says she needs to see me ...'cos I am good at saying everything is okay when it is not Hopefully after Sunday some of the restrictions will be lifted and you will be able to go back to face-to-face as well. That in person relationship is important for many of us - it is not at all the same by phone or video call so I do really feel for you.

I will be around on and off over the weekend so please tag me Hon if you need someone to sit with you - or provide a distraction ....I am getting good at doing that for myself so we can do it together lol

At present Tobes is not happy with me because I haven't given him his usual dry biscuits ...he had soft can food and a big handful of roast chicken but he is really put out that I haven't given him his biscuits ....barking and running to his bowl - aren't they cute our fur babies lol

You are right hon, face to face is much better, hoping it does change soon. The pdoc is by video too so at the moment don't get to see anyone in person.

Hopefully I will be around more this weekend then the last few days so feel free to tag me too hon.

Tobes is so spoilt @Zoe7!! But then again so is Izzy. But they are worth spoiling because they are super cute 😉 I am sure Tobes will eventually get his way, how can you say no to that face 😂

No I am going to be strong because he is not allowed biscuits for another day until his little gums heal a bit more. It is for his benefit but of course he does not get that @Snowie ...and yes is is super spoilt just like Izzy. I still take him everywhere with me. He came to the dentist and slept in the car. I would never leave him in the car in warmer weather but we would have been lucky to make 14 today and it was much colder this morning when I went to the dentist.

I made him a little cushion that slips over the front seat - 'cos that is where he lays. ...and he has a rug on the back seat with some of his toys. I also have a go-back that has all his things in it (water, treats, bags, towel, extra blanket, etc.). It lives by the front door so easy to take wherever we go just in case it is needed. - so yes super spoilt but worth it. Cat - as you know- has her own room so she is just as spoilt lol

Well that is fair enough @Zoe7 His gums do need to heal. Yes Cat is spoilt too, I am sure she is the only Cat in Tassie that has her own room!!

That is a good dieea for Tobes, his own lttle pillow and that pack by the front door. Might have to do something like that for Izzy.

They really are like kids!

You should @Snowie It makes it so easy to just grab when I am leaving - especially good for the beach (when I actually go). It has everything we need and just in case we detour somewhere he has plenty of water and some treats. We could get stuck somewhere overnight but I know Tobes would be okay.

My babies are certianly my kids - easier to handle too lol I have plenty of them at school but I can leave them there so I have the best of both worlds 😊

Have done the washing up and made the bed so very little now to do tonight before the footy, I do need to do some washing so will get that underway soon then can have it all dry by tomorrow. It will be nice to have all the housework done before Monday so I can come home to a clean house.

Coming home to a clean house is always nicer @Zoe7

Have been trying to do a little bit of housework every day since I have been home from hospital, trying to catch up with everything. I also find it takes my mind of things too, so it helps with that also.

Hehe @Zoe7 it is much easier to leave the kids at school, I am sure they are not as spoilt as Tobes and Cat however😂😂