Am Not Coping

Hugs @Appleblossom ❤️

Hi @Sam3

Thank you ....

Trying to put this into a nutshell for you .... my hubby has an undiagnosed cocktail of eating disordered behaviours, driven from within by some sort of undiagnosed personality issue, which itself emerged like a mid-life crisis ..... and his moods and behaviours and life choices can be all over the place. He doesn’t know he is unwell, although he is masking the symptoms that would lead to diagnosis, and we can’t get help for him. It’s an unhapoy state of affairs that has caused devastating life changes, so we are managing as best we can.

Judging by family patterns, and anxiety and depression issues now triggered in the kids, there is a genetic component here somewhere. We are on a rollercoaster.

@Appleblossom I haven’t yet caught up with the news, but have heard enough snippets here and there to get the gist. Hugs ..... ❣️

Thank you @BlueBay

I know things are tough for you at the moment.

@Faith-and-Hope and ALL

Morning everyone .... 👋💕. Still a bit early here, and I don’t have to be at uni this morning so I am hoping to doze back off for a bit, but not sure how likely that is.

Did you get back to sleep @Faith-and-Hope ? Thanks for the ‘nutshell’ summary. You’ve clearly got heaps going on & are managing it really well. Look after yourself. I’m having difficulty accepting I feel numb/low & don’t have hope I feel better as the depression has been on/off for 5 years. I don’t recognise myself anymore & I don’t want to be this amotivated self-absorbed person. Why can’t I just feel normal & be content with all the wonderful things I have (I’m thankful but can’t feel the gratitude if you know what I mean). Is it normal to be just getting by & to not feel anything strongly? I need to get up & go to work but can barely be bothered @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @Appleblossom @BlueBay @Shaz51

Morning @Sam3 , good to hear from you again. Yes I think its pretty normal for those of us who suffer depression and/or anxiety, to feel numb or as though life has been turned to mute from time to time. But it wont last forever .... nothing does. This feeling is temporary and you will get through it. In the meantime you need to push yourself to do even the most simple and basic things .. eg getting out of bed, brushing teeth, showering, eating ... basic functioning. The fact that you're also working, is pretty amazing. YOU are amazing! Have a productive day at work today.

Hi @Faith-and-Hope . Morning @Zoe7 I hope the headache has eased and that your work day is another good one.

Sherry 🌺☕

good morning @Former-Member , @Zoe7 , @Sam3 , @Faith-and-Hope

hugs @Appleblossom

Thanks so much for your encouragement @Former-Member It really does mean a lot. Thanks for the reminder that it will change a bit (ie moments when it lifts so in that sense it’s not permanent). Do you think it’s more likely the depression or the low dose antipsychotic to help with ruminations? I find ‘easy/repetitive’ work is essential to help ease the ruminations. How are you travelling at present?

I have been in that state at times before @Sam3 @as a result of emotional burnout, and it might be a form of depression, but I prefer to think of it as “downing tools for the moment” .... a state of rest from emotional responses and hyper-vigilance, racing thoughts, overthinking potential outcomes, etc ..... it helps me to be more accepting of that state and less self-critical about it. I hope that helps you to know.

👋💕 @Former-Member @Shaz51

I know you had to be at work early this morning @Zoe7 .... so here is something for your break .... 💚💐

Thanks a lot @Faith-and-Hope it does help. You have a great day if possible