Am Not Coping

Yes @Zoe7 @Shaz51 ..... there is a lot that is starting to align .....

Its still going to be a big year. Every year will be a big year until my mr. is diagnosed I think, and then there will be more big years after that .....

Our home in the west will likely be sold before too much longer, and there are a lot of big feelings sitting in the background regarding that, apart from what else may or may not happen.

Knowing that you have to let go of that important part of your life soon is pretty big Hon. I can imagine there are a lot of feelings that will bring up for you. Despite all that you have been confronted with - and all that has been 'taken away' from you - you still retain that eagerness for life and a positivity in moving forward regardess of the obstacles placed in your way.

It is going to be a big year for you all but there is so much positive in it so far. I certainly hope this therapist you are going to see will be able to help you navigate some of what you will no doubt be confronted with. You can only do what you are doing until there is a diagnosis - and then there is the added concern that Mr. will not recognise what he is being told and takes it out on his family. That is my fear and I suspect it is in the back of your mind too having to live with this every day. ...but I also know you have some resources in place to deal with that although being in the east and on your own would make that more difficult. That is why this therapist (or at least a therapist) is so important to have in place - to give you that support you need. ...and of course you have us here but we can only be your sounding boards as much as many of us wish we were right there for you.

I have to head to bed @Faith-and-Hope . Hoping you are home soon and doing the same. Goodnight Hon. 🌹💕

Home and heading to bed shortly too @Zoe7 ...,,

Goodnight Hon 😘💕

Sleep well Hon 😘💕🌹 @Faith-and-Hope

Thank you for your comments above @Zoe7 . I really appreciate them, but wasn’t sure whether you had already gone to sleep....

“See” you tomorrow .... 💚💐

@Zoe7 I hope you’re sleeping peacefully now & that your headache is gone in time for your morning duties. You probably don’t want to but you could utilise sick leave if things aren’t sustainable to cobtinue functioning at work on some days. I’m upset to read that you and @Snowie and no doubt others here have to deal with triggers/nightmares but I suppose you’ve found ways to manage it because you seem resilient. @Snowie I really hope that things improve for you soon after what sounds like a tough period. Acceptance of unpleasant moments seems to be the key from the mindfulness perspective & I know things get worse for me when I try to battle that things should be differ to how they are.

@Faith-and-Hope I’m glad you found a carer & that the cafe detour went well. It’s great that you & your family are occupied with meaningful study. I’m not sure I understand the references to your husband’s potential diagnosis but I hope the impact on you all is less than you anticipate.

Youve clearly got heaps going on @Shaz51 so I hope you can carve out some space & time for yourself.

Those sayings about the wheel turning are starting to feel real to me.

You must have seen all the stuff in the news.

It has taken so long.

I would never in my wildest imagination want or expect what has happened to occur.

Is it justice?

It is sad, but at last it is not ME that is sad.

Are you ok then @Appleblossom ?

“All that stuff in the news” has taken far too long in attempting justice. The main thing for you is that as you say it’s not you who is sad. Take good care of yourself @Appleblossom & anyone else impacted by that news item

@Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @BlueBay

Yes I am alright. Thanks @Sam3

I journalled and took notes.

I had a good chair and good view of all proceedings.

I am exhausted and will need tomorrow to get back to normal.

Just ate bullets and had a coke.