Am Not Coping

I can imaging Toby going crazy when you get home @Zoe7 . They certainly are excited when we have been out and come back home. It really is unconditional love. Makes you feel all warm and fuzzy inside too.

The kids are going well. Miss had a birthday party yesterday with a sleepover so has come home pretty tired. Mr is his same chilled self. I am lucky because they really are good kids. Even with Miss being a teenager, she hasn't got a lot of attitude.

You really do sound like you have wonderful kids @Snowie That is a reflection on you too Hon so you should be so proud

It also sounds like you are doing much better than you had been - you can hear it in your words here and it is wonderful to read. Do you feel like you are doing better - often it is a slow process but when we realise that we can tackle every day with just a little bit of hope it certainly does make a difference.

Thanks @Zoe7 . I am sure the testing times are still to come!!!

I do feel like I am doing better. I am still having some side effects to the meds but they are settling down. I think the pdoc will cease one med tomorrow and hopefully the rest will stay the same dosage. I feel my meds are starting to help in a positive way too. It has been awhile since I had any thoughts of SH which I am really happy about too. It seems things are slowly starting to fall into place.

It really does sound like it Hon and I am so pleased for you. We have certainly been on a rough road for so long now so it really warms my heart to hear you are doing so well. Like everything it is not a cure but when the meds are working it certainly helps. I hope it is onwards and upwards for you @Snowie - you have done so much of the tough stuff and deserve this so much. Much love and many hugs coming your way and a huge smile from me to you for the 'feeling better'

We have had it rough for awhile now @Zoe7. You have come so far too hon. Who would have thought a year ago you would be back at work. I think it goes to show we can continue on and get through those down moments and come out the other side

Yes @Snowie who would have though I would be back at work and you would be on the up as well. All that we have been through to get to this point and yet we have survived - I still think it is a miracle that I am back at work and despite all that I went through last year I didn't quit and now am at a wonderful school - it truly is a wonderful thing. I am still struggling with some nightmares but the intensity of them is certainly diminished. I wish they would go away all together but have to deal with them when they come up. How are you going with your nightmares?

My nightmares are still there @Zoe7 yet they don't have the intensity that they used too. They still wake me up but I don't feel like the whole thing is happening again. I am hoping with time that they disappear altogether but not counting on it.

Will say goodnight hon, have to leave early tomorrow for the course. Sleep well and hope work goes good tomorrow for you @Zoe7

Same here Hon. Mostly for me theyr are parts of history repeating themselves but they are also different events intertwined and that is hard to deal with at times. The intensity for me is not the same as they used to be either so that is a really good thing @Snowie

I don't think mine will ever completely go either but the after effects are certainly more manageable at present.

Goodnight sweet Snowie. Hope your day tomorrow is a good one. Catch you another time Hon - s usual it has been wonderful chatting to you tonight

Hi @Zoe7 & @Snowie @I just read through your discussion- it’s very heartwarming! Hope you both have a good week.

good evening @MDT @Former-Member @Appleblossom how are things?