Am Not Coping

Thank you @Zoe7 I have known he thinks that way about me, but this is having "the conversation" in a therapeutic setting. I have always been the one generating the sessions whether it be with my ex husband, or my mother, apart from crisis sessions at various hospitals. Part of me is wondering whether I do it to punish myself. I will give my son leeway for this year, but I am getting tired of it. If I compare his behaviours to mine at the same age it is not in the same ball park, yet he asserts the moral high ground. By his age I had many positive jobs and study experiences, had cooked, shopped and paid all my bills for 10 years. He talks about productivity and I did it. If I lie in bed these days, its because I am exhuasted by being used, kept on hand, but disregarded for over 30 years. I will need to talk to the therapist about retraumatisation issues, cos if that is all a session becomes, that is no help. I drove him home and he went straight to bed as he is struggling with sleep issues again.

At some stage @Appleblossom your son needs to take resonsibility for his own actions and not lay the blame at your feet. How he chooses to react/interact with you may be a learned behaviour over time and is almost definitely from seeing how others have treated you - this is where he needs to take some responsibilty for changing his own attitudes though. There is only so much you can do and only so much you can give without having that respect returned to you Hon. I know he has his own issues but you also deserve so much better and that is something he needs to realise here. His attitudes and behaviour to you are not warranted - I know that it needs to be in baby steps but hoping this ongoing counselling can get to the core of his atttude towards you and it begins to ease a little for you.

Thanks for messages @Zoe7 @Former-Member @TAB @Faith-and-Hope

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Home now. Everything seems ok. Long day. I’ll have to pop back another time. I’m exhausted. Never a dull moment. 😳😩

Just letting you know. We’re home.

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awww that is sweet of you to say @MDT I have had a lot of kids that have grown up and I have met as adults and they have given me some lovely feedback about when I was their teacher. I know I have a good way with the kids and I really do enjoy that part of the job - that is why this role I am doing is a good one for me - a lot of student interaction but very little of the actual paperwork - makes it much easier to ease my way back into having my own class again in time.

@Former-Member It is really great that you are both home now and everything seems to be okay but must have been serious to end up in emergency again. Hugs and hugs to you and D Hon. Hope you can get some rest now and then come back on later and let us know how you are both doing

So pleased for you @Zoe7 xxoo

took mum up to the hospital for a new dressing on her leg and her leg is now infected , so she is on ab`s

ah ha my day @Zoe7 , @BlueBay , @Former-Member , @Former-Member , @Faith-and-Hope , @outlander was interesting , mr shaz came in with me

and at first i met 2 Diabetes dieticians , they were very happy with all my results and then asked me if i had questions , so i told them and then they went to talk to the endocrinologist

next minute the endocrinologist was there talking to me -- soo the kidney is stable but will need to have my medication adjusted

also having a throat scan

mr shaz has his physio next monday

Your poor mum @Shaz51

Good to read the dietitians we’re happy eith your results. hope you sleep well tonight after a busy day. Xxxx

Thanks @BlueBay Things are going well with work and it is very much a relief after what I went through at the end of last year.

@Shaz51 There is some good news with your kidney being stable my sister. Not great about your Mum but glad they caught it early and she has ABs to get the infection under control.