Am Not Coping

Well done on 4 applications as that’s hard work (perhaps a sticker chart with a star for every application sent!?! ...but you clearly don’t need - well done @MDT). The new job is actually at the same facility (after the induction week which is elsewhere) - it’s with the company that won the contract over my current employer. Yes thanks I will nudge him to comply with his obligations. Now I must find a recipe for dinner (after I message @Zoe7 !)

Hey @Zoe7 I reckon you’re doing it tough at the moment so it’s goid to know you’re taking it a bit easy on yourself this evening. I’m so sorry that in the last couple of years you’ve had physical & mental health challenges not to mention debilitating fatigue. If you want to talk about work placement is it worth trying an early email prior to pdoc appt asking for an update & adding you’ll talk by phone later in the day?

@BryanaCamp hello! How’s your day been?

Pdoc isn't until Wednesday @Sam3 so will have rung to find out what is going on before that. I have psychologist tomorrow morningand a lot I need to talk to her about aside from the work stuff. It would have been nice to give her some news about what is happening with work but that will have to wait until the next appointment in a couple of weeks.

There has been a lot I have been through in the last couple of years but being both physically and mentally unwell at the same time have certainly fed off each other and made it very hard to get through. There have been some extremely down times so even the fact I went back to work at the end of last year and now preparing to go back again now is a major achievement. I have done a lot of very hard work to get to this point though and that is something I am very proud of. There have been numerous med changes and some extremely hard sessions with psych and pdoc but I am getting there. I think it shows that if I can do it from where I have come from then there is hope for us all. There were certainly times when I didn't think I would get through the day but I have somehow and here I am - going back to work and looking forward - even if it is still hard on some days.

You set an inspiring example @Zoe7 & I hope you continue to enjoy your hard-won accomplishments (especially if you ever doubt yourself)

There is still so much doubt @Sam3 but I am also learning to deal with that better as well. Some days like today are ones to just get through and that has been something I have learnt as well. Not every day is sunshine and roses - some are super tough but one of my favourite sayings (and that of one of our forum friends here @Faith-and-Hope) is "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass; it's about learning to dance in the rain” - that is something I am definitely learning to live by

Yeah you have been along for the ride on so much of my journey too @MDT so you know some of where I am coming from and how hard it has been. It is actually people like you though buddy that inspire me every day - you are doing so well yourself and have come so far The power of the community here is immense - we ride the highs and the lows with each other and together we inspire, encourage and support one and other to get through each day.

As a former academic @MDT I love your artful use of a quotation! @Zoe7 I sensed your day has been not great, but good on you for “dancing in the rain” today.

Yep not the best day today but I am getting through it @Sam3 Planning on an early night and starting again tomorrow