Am Not Coping

Enjoy your dinner buddy

You are a pretty awesome forumite friend too - hope you know that @MDT

@Zoe7 I think its a late T20 game tonight, being an evening game in Perth. So the ODI game will likely be over by then. And in the tennis De Minaur is already down a break. But there is a female Aussie qualifier to play tonight too.

Your garage project has been huge, and good on you for even attempting to tackle it in the first place. But it must feel very satisfying to look at your progress at the end of each day. Sorry you will be required to return to your old school again to collect more stuff. Hope you are spared having to again see the person who contributed to your distress.

How was your day @Sam3?

Sherry

I am watching the tennis but think the match will be over pretty quickly tonight @Former-Member. I'll record the next game with Kimberley playing and watch that after the 20/20 game. I did check and it is after the one dayer so can watch it. Going to take my meds later so I can hopefully stay up for it but I am pretty exhausted so I think the chance of me falling asleep on the couch is pretty high.

I am going back on the weekend to hopefully avoid that scenario at work. My sister is also coming with me so we can get it all done quickly. This will be the last time I have to go there so that chapter of my life will be over tomorrow finally.

There are a lot of things I have at home from the old school that I can finally get rid of as well - that will be good to clean out as well - but a bit like the garage - it will take time.

Been following along with the cricket also and it looks like India will win it easily if Australia don't get some wickets quickly. They have dropped a couple and that could make a big difference in the long run.

hello @Zoe7, @Former-Member, @MDT, @Former-Member

thank you @Sam3 for the tag xxx

Thankyou so much for your messages @Sam3 @Former-Member @Zoe7 @MDT @Shaz51 @outlander

Lovely of you all to think of me.

💜💖💜💖🌷🌺🌸

Sometimes I dream things that I have thought I’ve dealt with (the best I know how to), but obviously the traumas are still in my subconscious. Maybe they always will be. I don’t know if it’s possible to erase a lifetime of traumas.

Anyway, I choose not to think about them during the day, but sometimes they come up in my dreams. Then I have to learn how to move through all the terrible memories again.

I still have panic attacks at night, but I know I have learnt a bit better how to move on when these things happen.

It feels tragic when it still happens, but it’s good to know that there’s light at the end of the tunnel.

Thankyou for your kind thoughts. 😘

Prns are helping through for now.

A bottle of scotch for emergencies. 🤔😳👍

We’ve had some really bad scares with D lately too, especially today, which has been really hard too. Thankyou for listening (reading) and caring.

Hoping everyone’s day has gone ok.

Sorry I haven’t read up on here yet. It’s been one of “those days”.

I am wondering if your friend came over today @Zoe7 🤔

thinking of you daily @Former-Member and sitting with you xoxo

Thanks @Shaz51 💖🌷

Good evening @Former-Member@Zoe7@outlander@Former-Member@Shaz51 Thanks for asking about my day @Former-Member which overall I’m actually pleased about...despite crying during the morning & picking up a new diagnosis requiring further medication!? I’m pleased I achieved a few tasks (eg haircut, younger kids & I socialising with a friend, making nachos that everyone enjoyed despite initial disinterest). I’m glad I sent off a pretty thorough but concise cover lettter & CV for that job I spoke on the phone about today. Fingers crossed 🤞 @Former-Member @Shaz51 @outlander I believe you’re carers & I just want to say I genuinely admire you & hope that you gain benefit from this small subset of forumites. I believe we haven’t heard from @Sans911 for a while so I’m hoping she’s ok after her recent DSP appointment etc. @Former-Member you sound very strong to deal with the onslaught of symptoms you seem to face night & day. Sorry to hear you’ve had some scares with “D”. Hope you’ve been able to continue with your routine of affirmations & breathing to ground yourself & bring relief. @Zoe7 hope you’ve enjoyed your night of sport on TV & all the best for “back to school” tomorrow!!! I’m hoping that you’re pacing yourself well because you don’t want to return to work too weary. Glad to read you’re flexible on your Wednesday timeframe. You’ve written some beautiful encouragement to @MDT . Whilst I haven’t known you as long @MDT I’d like to concur with the statements of @Zoe7. I also empathise with wishing I could turn the clock back & wishing my resume was better and that I felt better about it. Have you thought of the possibility of paying for the expertise of those type of businesses that guide/advise/re-write your resume (might cost a few $ though)? Are there recruitment agencies that specialise in government/international relations roles? My uni student son wants to be a tutor & has registered with two agencies but it’s a bit early in the year to get work. Sounds like you enjoyed tutoring (not sure if you tutored for high school or uni but wondered if you could explore the tutoring option for overseas too but time of day might not fit with bar work!). Have you thought about getting trained overseas (or here) in English as a Second Language. That might tick a couple of boxes & could maybe fit with your bigger picture?

@Former-Member I was given a nightime med that has really helped with the nightmares - it might be worth talking to your pdoc about that as it i=has really helped me with both flashbcaks and lessening the nightmares. It is very rare that I have either now snd that helps with both sleep and being able to function the next day without those residual feelings that can so often affect your day.

I hope D and you have a better day todsy - it is super hard when your D has a bad day and thst must mske youor dy even worse. Hoping you slept better and can approach today with more energy.

No I didn't have a visit from friend - the day got away from both of us - both had a lot to get done and it took longer than expected. We are tking the next few days as they come and if there is a window in there somewhere then we may be able to meet up again. I do really want to get the garsge done so that is holding me back and I also need to go back to the old school this weekend to get some things still there. They are my priorities at the moment - we are still messaging each other though so that contact is still there - just need to find a time we are both free.