Am Not Coping

Morning @MDT@Zoe7@CheerBear@Maggie@Former-Member Hope everyone has some good moments today. I’m feeling somewhat tired & blah about another work day, but I always try to be positive with the residents. Anybody got any motivating words for going to a job you’re grateful for but don’t particularly enjoy?!Tomorrow is my day off & psych appointment. Hope all goes well for DSP appointment with male psych that you mentioned in another thread @CheerBear - thinking of you & sending optimism

yep @MDT ok supposed to be 34 here but feels warm already dunno. .. pay wasnt in bank .. w t really didnt need that ok its 1 day, but unless they pay it this week will be taxed more ..annoying

More garage work today and a Bunnings trip to pick up some more shelves. They are all up now and I can finally start moving things in and sorting them out. It is super hot in the garage at this time of day so the sorting out can wait until later. I have to go to the old school this afternoon to pick up a couple of things on the trailer - then I can have the trailer free for all the rubbish. I can throw things out as I sort and then make lists of what needs replacing. It is supposed to rain tomorrow so might need to move a couple of things temporrily back into the garage until the weekend and then have those 2 days to get organised. It is coming along slowly but getting there. I hope to have it all done by Wednesday next week as I start DBT again then.

@TAB I hope your pay goes in very soon - nothing worse than expecting money and not getting it - fingers crossed it is in tomorrow for you.

@Former-Member @MDT @CheerBear @Sam3 @Maggie Hi to you all - have briefly caught up with posts but don't seem to be able to take as much in today so far - might be beause of the heat I was working in - so will re-read and catch up properly. Sending hugs for now

I imagine it’s annoying indeed @TAB but maybe to visit to retrieve your tools & have a conversation about casual employment too perhaps?! I’m on lunch break. Everything fine atm apart from some irritable, rude residents. Don’t delight in this work but I know I should just be thankful I have a job for another 2 weeks. Really concerned about managing demands of any new employment if I’m even successful in achieving that. It’s hard isn’t it when feeling blah to do what you need to do. Wish I could be less self-serving & more focussed on doing things for my kids/husbands/friends. Strange when you want to cry but can’t. Thanks for your support @CheerBear Wondering how @Sans911 is going?

wow that sounds busy @Zoe7 yeah fingers crossed but doubt that they are that organised re pay. Thanks tho

it was casual @Sam3 and yes I snuck in a few days ago and got tools. have more work from them in 2 weeks time, so can survive and that's good that you got work already

Glad you got your tools @TAB and you have some more work there in a couple of weeks. I know it is not ideal for you but at least you will have a little money coming in.

@MDT @Sam3 How is the job hunting going for you both? Any prospects yet?

@Sam3 Some days we just feel like crying but there is nothing there - but those days do pass also. It is super tough though and feeling like you should be better for everyone else makes it even harder. You can only be the best version of yourself as you can be and often that is hard to do when dealing with a mental illness so give yourself a break Hon - you can only do what you can do and as you start to work through other things in your life you can also begin to work on yourself - but that won't happen overnight and that is okay