Am Not Coping

I think you are just feeling that way about your career choice because there is not much around but if it is your passion then it will work out @MDT It is definitely tough not having money - stops us doing a lot of things that would benefit our mental health. I am lucky that my psych is bulk billing until I am back at work and getting paid properly again. My GP also bulk bills because I see her so often and when I not doing DBT my pdoc also bulk bills so I am very fortunate will all my treating team.

On a completely different note altogether - I have finished the frame for the garage wall so just have the sheeting to do. I am going to have a rest, watch some tennis and then get the sheets off the trailer and begin to measure then up. I also need to clean up the mess I have made in the garage so there is room to bring the sheets in. I love construction Also looking forward to having a shower later when I have finished today

thanks @MDT you take it easy too, yeah am sick of the heat

I nearly missed my appointment today - completely forgot about it until I remembered getting a reminder on Friday - had to look up when it was and then get dressed and leave very quickly. I am glad I made it as it was a good session and just what I needed to get me motivated this afternoon.

I hope your psych doesn't hassle you to pay when you can't afford it @MDT. Do you have any work you can do to get a little more money?

It is great that your parents are helping @MDT - and I get what you mean with the self-confidence but you aren't doing nothing - you are working out the best way to tackle the opportunities in the UK and they seem supportive of that. It does take away a bit of your independence though when you know you are reliant on your parents for help. I do hope you get this UK stuff underway quickly so you can embark on the new period of your life soon.

Sorry to see the pc problems are persisting @MDT Can I just add that as a parent we’re often fine with assisting adult children (although my eldest is only a 19 yo full time student- is that really an adult?!).

@Zoe7 I’m sure you inspire us all with your dogged determination.

ok now I’m going to ask for some support. I’m really exhausted & confronting impending unemployment (or even new employment) isn’t appealing. I know I typed that I didn’t want to indulge in self-pity or fear but ... I don’t seem to have the requisite skill set for life, never mind a job. Should I tell my resilient upbeat buddy whose dad is dying from cancer? Or naybe one of my other friends who surely don’t need this? We should be ok financially for a while if I don’t work, but I’m concerned about my mental health more than the finances. I have these lovely children & a superstar husband why can’t I be a ‘proper’ human being??!!!!!!

well I got word back from work after being told dont come in today cos thought 45deg in already oppressive environment on sunday would be too much for me. .. 'the guy who gave me the work will let me know' apparently. As in good bye see you later, so now will have to do 20k round trip to get my tools back. Didnt know how i was going to cope going back there, but now just sacked from job. Ok. @Zoe7@Sam3 well you guys were asking .. ...they can go and ....