Am Not Coping

That sounds really sensible @Zoe7 ....

Yes, it felt good getting those notes out of the way, and there weren't more in that class today, which gives me a break to give my attention to other things tonight. I am planning to take some time out to make a couple of cards .... and do that every now and then so I have a little stash of them.

That sounds wonderful @Faith-and-Hope Then you have them on hand to give out or send to people when you need. It is also a good self-care activity

Hopefully you will be able to get an early night again and catch up on some of that lost sleep over the last week or so. I am planning on an early night myself tonight - then hopefully I can begin tomorrow early and get a few things done. It is forecase rain again so no outside work but plenty to do inside. I have had another stomach ache tonight - not quite as bad as yesterday but still enough to stop me doing anything but resting so there is a lot I still need to get done. My house needs a tidy up again and I know I will feel even better when I have done that.

What classes do you have tomorrow?

I have Drawing studio tomorrow @Zoe7, just the one class, so I am hoping to get to the pool again in the morning. That helps to tire me out to sleep well too, apart from having to keep working at toning myself up a bit. There is a mindfulness self-care aspect to it too, as you would know.

I do Hon - my favourite day is Thursday because I usually have the pool to myself for 5-10 minutes before the kids classes begin. I really enjoy that time to float around and just feel the water around me. I am definitely going tomorrow - would have gone today if I didn't have appointments @Faith-and-Hope

Drawing studio class - is that a computer based one or actual drawing?

Actual drawing .... 🤩

We explore different mediums and techniques.

@Zoe7

oh that is a class I would love to be in with you @Faith-and-Hope Tomorrow afternoon I will imagine I am there with you

We are doing collage work tomorrow @Zoe7. I think there is a lot about this course you would enjoy. I hope there is a time in the not too distant future where you can attend some TAFE art classes, just for the enjoyment of it and inspiration Hon .... some you-time as part of your recovery.

I looked up what is offered down here already and it seems most are full-time - much life yours. Not even any night classes I could do but I will look into it a bit more once I am back at work and settled in there. The biggest issue for me is going to be tiredness and what I can handle to balance work and ME time. I don't want to get stuck back in that 'work is my life' scenario again - it is probably part of what sent me over the edge the first time - in hindsight this 'crash' was bound to happen at some point as I worked so hard and for such long hours and did very little to nothing for myself. That needs to change. I need to be able to continue doing DBT and have my appointments as well as keep going to the pool - plus have time for myself just to BE - enjoy time with Toby and Cat and find time to do the things I love. One thing I am determined to do this Summer is get my kayak out again (sorry - will need to take it off Port Melbourne beach for a couple of months lol).

yes @Faith-and-Hope, we have a very special friend here called @Zoe7 who is encouraging , supportive , caring xoxo

Hello @Adge see you tomorrow , hope you sleep well xx