Am Not Coping

@Faith-and-Hopesounds like a big bunnings trip is needed for you hun.

Going to say good night @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7. taken meds and eyes are starting to get heavy. I hope you both get some sleep tonight.

@Faith-and-Hope I have a terrarium set up in the corner of my loungeroom - with white glittery looking rocks in the base. It was an old fish tank that had too many of the seals needing replace so I turned it into a terrarium instead. D3 will have fun doing that

Bunnings do have both the cheaper tin snips and more expensive ones - the cheaper ones do the trick just as well and if you aren't using them all the time are perfect.

@Snowie I totally agree - it is so hard for those who have never been through it to get what it is like. Then there are those that have also riden this wave with us that want to understand but really can't. Like you I am so grateful for this forum - it has become both a place of sanctuary and of support. There was a time when it was neither for me and I didn't think I could find that anywhere but a lot has changed over the last year. I feel lucky to have support here because I don't have a lot irl - apart from my gp (and previously my psychologist) no-one knows what I have been through and even then they don't know a lot of it. My pdoc knows even less as I have never told her the really hard stuff - never told anyone some of it. I don't think I ever will

Goodnight @Snowie Hope you have a peaceful night Hon

Goodnight @Snowie ..... same .... wishing you a peaceful night Hon ..... 💜💤

@Faith-and-Hope @Snowie @Shaz51 @BlueBay @Nay69 @Sans911 and all passing through...

I finally got myself up and going just before lunch time. I had a bad night last night so after I fed my babies I went back to sleep for a few hours. I did get to the chemist and luckily enough got a park right outside so I could keep my eye on Toby - methinks the universe was looking after me this morning

We went to Bunnings and Toby sat in the trolley on his blanket while I chose plants. I bought some flowering plants and seedlings - some of them I have already planted in the garden. I need some more potting mix but will get that cheaper elsewhere - so that will be a Wednesday job after DBT and my psychology appointment. So some of the plants will not go in until later in the week.

The corner of my garden under the trees is starting to look nice and I have planty of plants now to plant in the side and back flower beds ....just need to remember to water them and hopefully keep them alive There is still some weeding and cutting back in some areas to do but those areas I don't have any garden in yet - that is my next big job ...doing the garden edge, digging it up and preparing it for plants - that will be a summer job though as I don't have enough energy yet to do it - it is a big job with lots of roots to dig out and some blackcurrant vines to get rid of.

Tomorrow I am just planning on getting to the pool, doing a little more housework and resting before Wednesday.

I hope everyone is having a good day - at least getting through it the best way you can.

It’s been a “getting through it” day today @Zoe7. We have group projects to do in our business units, and one of the people in our group is definitely not a team player ..... grrrrr ...... They try to dictate all the time, then play the victim when they don’t get what they want, and it blew up all over our group today. They had a major dummy-spit, spoke very aggressively, then stormed off, making a scene later at the end of the class that gave the appearance that they had been maligned and traumatised ...... and the teacher stepped up in empathy with them.

The rest of us are sort of reeling, and we have a group presentation to do this coming week.

So not cool !!

Vent over ......

I am glad you made it to Bunnings. Maybe that is what I need to do now when I get home. Can I borrow Toby to sit in my shopping trolley ?

Oh what a pain @Faith-and-Hope Those type of people annoy me a lot - and it must make you feel like you are at home dealing with more controlling behaviour - so not cool Hon - very much feeling for you

Of course you can borrow Toby - so wish I could call arouond with him so you could get in some fluffball hugs - would make you feel better like it does with me. As you know he is quite a snuggler and I have no douobt he would fall in love with you instantly

A Bunnings trip always helps me - even if it is just to get one or two things - I still end up looking around ...especially at the plants. It may help you to just have a browse and maybe get the tin snips you need.

What is the plan tonight - other than Bunnings. I am having a quiet night - have done enough today.

Art, art and more art @Zoe7 ..... I have things to do for uni, but lots of ideas of my own too ..... and I now have space and materials to go to .....

That's what I like to hear Hon - art everywhere and heaps to get into. @Faith-and-Hope

If I get dinner organised early enough and cleaned up then I might be able to do some painting myself. I am pleased I have gotten the things done in the garden I have today so that is a win. Tomorrow is the pool so I'll take the rest of the day easy afterwards - may even get some done in the afternoon.

I am glad you made it to Bunnings. @Zoe7 tooo xx

hugs @Faith-and-Hope

things are mounting up again with everything with mr shaz , I have caught up with everything running around and ringing up for mum --