Am Not Coping

You and many others here inspire me too @Zoe7 .... just steadily, often unsteadily, pushing on and through the struggles and difficulties. It’s a couage and strength that rises out of incredible adversity ..... and to have found a community of people supporting each other this way is so special.

I can't really put into words just how much your strength and compassion have enouraged and inspired me Hon - words just do not seem enough anyway!

There are many others here that have provided that as well but you know you are very special to me @Faith-and-Hope

I have nearly finished my taxes - going to have a debt this year - income protection didn't take out enough and combined with the recreaction leave I was paid in the holidays there is a significant debt to repay. Makes it even more essential that I return to work soon to be able to cover that. A couple of months ago that would have completely floored me but I can see how far I have come that it is simply an annoyance that needs to be dealt with - you have walked this whole journey with me so I wanted to acknowledge bth what I have achieved and how much you have been there to help me along the way - it is a good day today ...not every day is going to be but we take the good when we can right!

Right @Zoe7 ..... ❤️🦋

So proud of you Hon. You’re doing it ..... ❣️

Work will be the big test - I know that @Faith-and-Hope - all the stress and long days but starting off half days will be a good way to start. I am hoping that I can do two mornings which gives me the afternoons to organise things and have a rest if need be.

I have been to the shop so that is another thing crossed off for today - now it is only getting dinner organised and then I can settle in for the night.

How are youo going with getting things organised for uni this week?

Well done ....,. ❣️ That was a lot achieved for you today.

Just settling myself down to it now @Zoe7. I have the art space back now. I haven’t opened my Notebook since we came back to Melbourne, so charging up the battery will be my first mission.

I haven't gotten around to the ironing yet so might need to do that while watching the NRL grand final - would love to have that out of the way too today @Faith-and-Hope but also know I have done a fair bit today and it is probably time to relax. I have kept up the pain meds today to keep my headache at bay so no doubt I will get tired now that I have sat down....but that is ok - sometimes we need to know when enough is enough.

I bought myself some chocolate covered donuts so will have a coupe of them after dinner.

How are you feeling today Hon - know you were very tired last night.

I hope you are getting yourself organised for uni tomorrow Hon. Today is starting to take its toll on me so I have had my meds and going to try for an early night. The NRL final is one sided so far so I am losing interest in that. Will log off now and see how I go with the rest of the night. I will say goodnight now and hope meds kick in soon and help me to sleep @Faith-and-Hope Hope you have a good night and sleep well yourself. Catch you later

Goodnight @Zoe7 .... sorry I have missed you tonight.

I was in the art room, but wifi is not set up there properly yet, so I was struggling to connect with the forums. Back home now to get some computer work done, then back to the art room for visual diary catch-up and some other practical stuff. It will be good when we get the Internet sorted there, and there won't be all this to and fro with my work commitments.

Just having offloaded what is not "home" stuff has really helped with home, and I can feel the pressure coming down already in terms of getting more spread out with our general living.

Yes .... I know that feeling when there is more on your agenda to get done after quite a full day ..... then you sit down ...... then your body starts talking and telling you that you have done enough for one day ..... There were so many years where I had to push past that point and get up and go again, but not so much now, thankfully. I know we are still having stressful bouts, but I can actually feel my system relaxing at a deeper level now.

Sleep well sweet butterfly ..... 💚🦋💤

Quick hello to anyone else around tonight. I will be around a bit, in between getting sorted for classes again tomorrow.

@Faith-and-Hope Hope you have a great first day back at uni Hon

Thanks @Zoe7 .... 🦋❤️