Am Not Coping

Hi @Zoe7 .... 😊💓

I posted this on Carers forum earier today in response to someone there, but I have brought it across here as an update -

Most of the submissions are in now. Just one tutor has bumped her review over to next week, but I was expecting it to happen on Thursday, so I am all ready for it.

Another tutor bumped his review of our work into the last hour of our class time yesterday, plus another half an hour of our lunch break (usually 1 hour), despite being very jealous of his own lunch hours and refusing to accommodate over-runs of time by us .... grrrr 😒

I had needed my lunch hour to complete a visual diary task which was due in the next class ..... grrrr 😠

Then told me that I wouldn't be able to finish my last piece using the studio and equipment, as the unit is finished, and it was my fault for not managing my time properly, at which point I spoke up ..... told him I had less than an hour's work to do to complete the work, and he had taken away our last hour of class time with no warning, so I had in fact managed my time properly ...... grrrrr 😵😠😡

I was so mad I wasn't concentrating properly, and left my work bag in the studio, which got locked for the remaining half hour of lunchtime ...... so I couldn't even have skipped lunch to half-finish the visual diary entry ..... grrrr 😥😠

Not a great day, but beautiful images and support here for me, which I have found this morning 💓💓💓

Mr was pretty good last night, although he is sparking easily at the moment, and I bought some beading supplies (found a cheaper way to access them) on my way home. I am going to spend the weekend doing some jewellery-making as self-care. I need to produce some samples for my business unit on Monday anyway, but it will get me being creative, and hopefully over-write the not-good feelings from this last week of being bounced around at home and at uni.

Getting my art on ...... and I have worked out an alternative way to complete my art piece from the wonky class yesterday ..... borrowed a hand tool from the studio to return on Monday, and the tutor could hardly say no after I pointed out that he had messed up my time management for the task.

Thank you for the cat show info. I will take a look and see whether I can go.

I am heading to the coffee shop now to catch up on posts, so hi to everybody here ..... 👋 and I will see you over there ....>>

What a day for you Hon - it is so frustrating when things like that happen. I used to find that a lot with teaching - there was always something else that needed to be done that occupied the non-instructional time and planning was put on the back burner. ...and meetings always ran late so there was no chance to do things afterwards ...all very frustrating!

I figured it wasn't a great day for you as you weren't around much last night - I watched the football and then went to bed. I slept until the early hours of this morning - have already been to the shop and am watching a tv show presently. Going to get out in the garden for a little while this afternoon before the footy is on again.

I get my beads online - a couple of places in Australia and one from China - they are relatively cheap - especially brought in bulk which is what I did to use with the kids. I taught them how to make earings but most needed help to bend the wire. They did enjoy making beaded bracelets and necklaces too.

I hope your coffee is relaxing and your day is full of light - you need it after your last week

Thank you @Zoe7 .....

I am going to invest in self-care for the rest of the weekend. I have felt the physical psychosomatic symptoms I experi need earlier in the year surfacing a little, so that is my warning to dial it back for a while.

One of these things was manageable. It’s when they compound that it becomes overwhelming, and therefore a danger to my health .....

You have to put yourself first Hon - and being able to see the signs is just as important as getting on top of it all. A self-care weekend sounds good - I am doing much of the same here - especially taking the time out to watch the footy and enjoy the experience without other distractions. I hope you find your jewellery making, coffee at the coffee place and whatever else you do to be both relaxing and a distraction from everything else you are dealing with.

I may even take some time out from the forum this weekend but I will keep my eye out for you and respond when I can @Faith-and-Hope

Thanks @Zoe7 ..... 💚

I know you have been very active here supporting others across the last week, but I know that can be a form of self-care too ..... just needs balance because it can be taxing in a different way, and we all need a bit of time-out here and there.

Sometimes supporting others takes a lot out of me too Hon - it is hard seeing others go through so much and that does weigh on me also - so having a little time to myself this weekend is important. The weather is nice today so that helps with my mood too. I really need to get some housework done - a clean house always helps @Faith-and-Hope

I have not heard back from the Principal of my school so I may need to go there on Monday to try to see her - I really wanted to begin the volunteer work this week as that would give me 3 weeks before the end of term - enough time to get into a routine and see how I go before a couple of weeks off. I do hope she says it is okay and I can get started - it really is essential I do that before we consider me going back to paid employment.

HUgh @Zoe7 ..... ❤️

I hope she does too.

Going to log off now Hon and have that time to myself - will look in on you later @Faith-and-Hope I hope the remainder of the day is good to you

ohhh what a day @Faith-and-Hope

@Zoe7you have been amazing , yes it is good for us to do our on self care and time for ourselves

yaa Shaz51

Hey @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51

Sorry I missed you earlier @Shaz51 Hope you have had a relaxing afternoon.

I have managed to do the vacuuming and ironing. Need to finish cleaning the kitchen and put a load of washing on but that can wait until later.

My sister dropped around which was nice. It is her partner's birthday this week so she gave me something to give him - that was super sweet because he is really hard to buy for. We will probably go out for dinner on his birthday and I am actually looking forward to it

Toby and Cat have been fed - Cat is outside and Toby is playing with his toys. It won't be long though before he is asleep again lol