Am Not Coping

Hey BB how are you doing today? @BlueBay

Hi @Zoe7

im ok I guess. Just a few physical issues that aren’t getting better which is frustrating me. I just want an answer. I’m a bit down with my depression.

I hope you get some answers soon BB - I understand what it is like to have physical issues that are not yet diagnosed - it took nearly 3 years for my IBS diagnosis after many different tests to rule things out @BlueBay Depression certainly can take a hold and we often have those days when it feels worse than others - stay occupied Hon - we know you don't do well when you have too much time on your own to think. What is for dinner tonight? I am having chicken stir-fry (if I can get my butt into gear and cook it lol) otherwise it may be toast lol

We’re having left over lasagna @Zoe7

Chicken stir fry sounds nice.

I know I need to stay busy but I’m feeling really crap. My blood pressure was very very high this morning. Doctor thinks my immune system is low because of my rash. It’s so damn itchy. I don’t know it’s cold snd dark - doesn’t help

me.

I’m laying on the couch Doing nothing. Xxx

Not good that your blood pressure is high BB - I was on meds for my BP but we have stopped them - my gp thinks it was the previous meds that raised it as it has been normal-low the last couple of times I had it checked. It was a little higher yesterday but still in the normal range so we are monitoring it over the next couple of weeks.

You have had that rash for a while now - is the cream helping with the itching?

Leftover lasagne sounds yummy - I think I will get lasagne on the way home tomorrow and have tomorrow night - I buy a big one, divide it up and freeze it so I have something easy ready to defrost and cook - I really need to do some grocery shopping though as I am running out of most things @BlueBay

How is your knitting going?

Hi @Zoe7

Yeah had to have an ecg and now wait for results from a cardiologist.

The rash is sooo itchy. Have to now try two creams together for another 2 weeks if not better then I need to see a dermatologist. But I have a suspicion that it’s Candida snd it’s coming out on my skin as a rash. So I’m stopping all sugar wheat and gluten and see if rash clears up.

My knitting is very very slow. I have no motivation to finish it but I need to by thus sat fir the baby shower.

If not I can give to her later.

That rash seems horrible @BlueBay - I get that kind of thing from the sun as a result of one of my meds and have to be really careful how long I am exposed as it gets really red and swollen on exposed skin - I have cream for when that happens but it is extremely itchy when it does so I really feel for you.

It would be nice if you could get your knitting done for the baby shower - you would feel like you achieved something too and that is always good when dealing with depression - any small win is big Hon

I hope your ecg results are ok BB - letg me know when you get the results

Cat has started crying for her dinner but she will have to wait a bit longer - she is annoying when she does that - Toby is laying next to me ignoring her as best he can lol

Lol @Zoe7 Toby is so funny and cute xx

haha Toby certainly has the cuteness factor but is a bugger to keep clipped and brushed @BlueBay

I saw the photo of Jersey you posted the other day - she is a beautiful dog - I bet you get plenty of cuddles from her now the boys are away

Yeah but she is so lost @Zoe7

she manages to go on their beds and sleeps. But you can tell she’s not happy that something is missing.

My oldest son comes back next week!!! My youngest I don’t know what he’s doing. I have a sneaky suspicion that he’s coming back the same time snd surprising me. Just a feeling I’ve got.

I’ll let you know how my results go.

Have a good night. Maybe go sbd do some knitting. Xxxx