Am Not Coping

Goodnight @Former-Member and the best of luck for your adventure tomorrow

I have seen you getting out and about a bit on the forums this week @Zoe7 ..... good for you ❣️ It’s so lovely seeing you in that caring support role when you can ..... and it’s coming from your experience.

Thanks Hon @Faith-and-Hope I am going to head off to watch the game now - might come back on at half time - see how I am feeling then.

I don't know if you are still around @Faith-and-Hope but if not you will get this tomorrow...

I know you are on the move again tomorrow so I probably won't be able to chat to you much - just wanted you to know that I am really pleased that things are falling into place for you over east and that you are making some connections. I hope that all makes you feel a little less alone Goodnight my angel and safe travels tomorrow

Thank you @Zoe7 ..... 💗🌷💕

I’m sorted, but everything is still feeling like it’s in bits and pieces ....

Although he didn’t work today, S2 has been putting himself to bed early, as he did tonight, trying to get his sleep cycle sorted out. When that is in the right place it has a knock-on effect of energising him at the right time of day to work.

I’m just going to go with the flow for the next week or so. I am organised underneath it all, so I will do a re-group of myself at the other end of the week in time for uni start.

I am leaving this place clean anyway ....

Goodnight Hon. I hope you sleep well ....

I hope S2 can get his sleep sorted out and just as importantly get his work completed and in on time. I know it is a tough position for you to be in - not wanting to push him but still trying to encourage him - it can be a fine line when dealing with the underlying MH issues as well.

I hope you enjoy your time back west - spending time with your girls, your dad and hopefully seeing some dolphins along your river. Sometimes these small moments can carry us through the tougher times.

I had my meds late tonight because I wanted to watch the game so I will be up for a little while yet... just trying to wind down a bit now and hoping for sleep to come easily tonight.

I have my gp appointment tomorrow and I'm pretty sure she will send me for an xray so I might not be around much myself - see how the day pans out though I suppose @Faith-and-Hope

I think it is because the mi was triggered through excessive pushing and controlling @Zoe7, that seems to be what triggers the shut-down .... even the expectation that that is what will happen is enough, hence his unreasonable fear of being judged by his tutors. It’s facing demons at the moment, because it is a revisitation of exactly this time of year last year and the year before where he experienced repeat traumas. If he can make it through this pinch-point I think he will start to recover. If not, he will have to keep revisiting it until he can ..... please God it happens this time around .....

I will be thinking of you with your appointment tomorrow. I hope it all goes well.

There is a lot of joy to focus on in the days ahead. That is where I have to set my attention. Have done all I could here for the moment.

Faith and hope ..... faith and hope .....faith and hope .....

Goodnight. I will try to sleep now. D3 texting me .... :face_with_rolling_eyes:lol

I hope there is a breakthrough this time around for S2 as well @Faith-and-Hope.

Goodnight Hon - I am going to log off myself now and relax for a little while until I begin feeling sleepy. Hopefully catch up with you sometime tomorrow. Sending you hugs and much love

Thanks @Zoe7 .... you too 🦋💕