Am Not Coping

well your pics kinda green.. and a joint in carpentry ??

not quite fini

@Appleblossom Not sure what's going on!!! - sorry to disappoint - having changed my avatar - love my butterfly!

Wasnt your pic lovely swirly oil paint like colours .. maybe I got it wrong and its wasnt a butterfly ..

There it is ... you cheeky girl

@Appleblossom my internet seems to be playing up - maybe that has something to do with it!

???

Guessing that's what it was ....

How'd you go with the doc @Zoe7 ?

Hi @Appleblossom .... 😊💕

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

think my visual processing is improving .. lol .. but only sometimes better than tech gliches in optic fibre. @Zoe7

@Appleblossom sorry sent last post before I received yours!

@utopia the appointment kind of went how I thought it would! I really did not want to tell her but new I had to. She was concerned of course. Asked why I didn't called anyone (meaning her or psych). Told her because I didn't want help - just wanted to end it. She asked what was going to stop me doing it again. Took a while to answer that one but that I had told her and last week I didn't when I saw her earlier that day (and I didn't have anything left to take). She wanted me in hospital - and again I said definitely no. She is going to give me my meds each time I see her - just enough for each day and not enough to doing anything else with. We both see this as the best solution at the moment. She is also going to call my psych and let her know what has happened and what is going on for me - more a 'heads up' so I don't need to go through it all again.

I am not going back to work - not at all for the next 4-6 weeks and then re-evaluate what direction to take. She is going to talk to our HR Manager for me to work out a plan so I don't have to worry about it at all. She assured me that no details need to be given just her professional opinion that I am still not fit for work - I do agree with this - just worried about income as you can imagine - will probably have to cut back psych sessions for a while which may not be ideal but necessary to get by.

GP doesn't really want to consider me going back to work in any capacity until I can see a psychiatrist - have a date in May but she is going to get back onto it tomorrow to see what she can arrange beforehand.

I think the pressure of whether I could go back to work and how I would cope (plus the money side of things) has had a much greater impact on me than I realised. The work part has now been taken out of my hands and as GP said - there is nothing I can do about that now and nothing I need to worry about -she will deal with that for me. I just have to sort out my income protection, at least get the process started and hope it is sorted quickly because I really have got nothing left.

Wow - that's a lot! Go back Thursday. See psychologist Wednesday.

@Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Former-Member @BlueBay

Hi @Zoe7 .... maybe seek some assistance regarding food coupons etc to get you by .... I'm not sure the starting point for that in your state, but maybe Anglicare ? Don't feel embarrassed ..... just add back into their system later when you're back on your feet and consider it an advance.

You have paid taxes. You're a compassionate person who helps others ..... draw what you need from community resources and replenish later.

Just a thought.

💗💕