Am Not Coping

@utopia Maybe you should write a big sign for your son to hang over the fence at your Mum's - embarass the sh*t out of him lol

Cat finally came in and went to her room and Toby stayed next to me all night - nothing unusual there. I'm going to take him to the beach later this morning. I do need to get out and I figure I won't be as tired if I go earlier - we'll see how that goes!

I didn't go to bed until about 2ish myself - wondered why I was so awake then realised I hadn't taken my meds - switching around times and doses put my routine out. I did finally get a few hours sleep but it took a while - and I was very restless.

I am the same when the footy is close - I tend to walk around the room and don't want to watch - not good for anxiety lol - not that many games my team have played have been really close in the last few years - hopeful that this year will be a bit better!!!!

Glad you are seeing your psychologist tomorrow. Don't think about anything until you get there. It does sound like you are struggling a bit at the moment - be kind to yourself and take it easy my friend - here for you

Hi everyone .... 💕

@Phoenix_Rising ..... I didn't know ladybugs "came in yellow" ....

That organisation looks fantastic ... I can see why you are waiting for it to arrive in NSW ❣

@utopia I am glad you are going to see your psychologist today as well .... and look forward to hearing how you went.

Hi @Zoe7. I am going to use the time between now and next week to set up my paints too. I have my oils within reach, but my acrylics are less accessible. I started painting in an outside area near our bedroom last year, rather than in a store room where I had a corner set up. I can see the river from this new spot, and although there is some shelter from the weather, it will be hard to paint there in the height of summer during the day, and in winter when we have a few weeks of cold and rain, but considering how little time I have spent painting over all, this new location ought to bring a marked improvement in productivity .... hopefully .... although it is more to do with my head space in fact,

See how I go with this stepping stone image. Looking forward to it ....

Hi All 🙂

You are so right @Zoe7 last night was busy. Please don't feel you have to respond to everyone though, balancing out what is managable for you in that given moment is important to consider. In saying that you did a great job last and supported many. The value of giving and receiving

@Phoenix_Rising that does look like a wonderful organisation and can imagine your passion for becoming involved with them.

I find soft things, like soft toys comfoting along with heat. My heat pack and a hot shower are nuturing for me. Owning your experince, being guided by what matters to you, our own values is perfect. Perfcetly imperfect 🙂

@Faith-and-Hope I still haven't sorted out the room I want to set everything up in. There is so much more stored in there because I am not at work. I might need to turn the dining room into a temporary art room for now. You outdoor are sounds perfect - paint and watch the world go by at the same time - my idea of bliss I'm even thinking of doing the stepping stone image in soft pastels - maybe I'll do a few - see how I go. This is going to be fun!!!!!

@Former-Member Yes last night was busy! You do what you can when you can - I think I need to write that on my wall! It is nice to be able to give back some of what you have received occasionally

I'l send you my bill later!!! lol

@Faith-and-Hope How was the outdoor movie? Did WH behave!!!

{sneaks in, hangs out "do not disturb" sign, and curles up under blanket with turtle, making weird noises}

@Phoenix_Rising

Would you like a bed time story?

I believe that is more positives than negatives - so big tick for the evening

Not sure what is happening (insert a confused flutterby here...) - me looking on the positives first - progress??? @Faith-and-Hope