What to do when there is nothing left to do.

Hey @Eden1919

It sounds like you're so exhausted and in a place of deep hopelessness right now. That after so much effort and for such a long time, nothing seems to help the emotional and physical pain you constantly endure.

I have sent you an email checking in with you. If you feel you are in need of immediate support, please contact one of these services:

Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659467
beyondblue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

I'm glad you reached out and encourage you to continue to engage on the forums for support

Big hugs @Eden1919 .

Thanks for posting, I've been concerned for you. It sounds as though the latest CTO didn't solve anything, but I trust it was at least a chance for review.

I hope you're finding the new website format OK? It's hard to find old threads as the search function seems to miss a lot but I think you usually start new threads.

Have you finished the year's uni assessments and exams? Fingers crossed you get a good result.

Take care,

Dimity

@Eden1919 hey hun, sounds like you've hit a very big wall. These are normal parts of recovery but some of the walls we hit are bigger than others. It can definitely feel insurmountable at times. For me, sometimes the walls have seemed so large I had no idea it was even possible to get past them (my sense of self-loathing was a big example).

How long do you feel you've been stuck at this wall for? Or is this a new wall for you?

Sending you some huggles my dear, you have endured far too much 💜🫂

@Dimity i havent finished exams yet and i am really struggling at this rate i am going to fail.

@Jynx this has been going on for years now and nothing gets any better it just keeps getting worse.

i am really struggling today and idk what to do anymore i am so exhausted and everything is just too much ugh there is no point even typing more it isnt like anything can help anymore.

Can you take a bit of a break @Eden1919 ?

Aye I'm with @tyme on this one. Funnily enough I think something everyone ought to have but no one seems to encourage, is taking a break from the work of survival and recovery. You're allowed!

I'm sorry last night was so hard hun, sending you much warmth and care this arvo 💜

Hope the exams are better than you think @Eden1919 . You've done well to persevere with the course. I really respect that.

I don't have any answers either.

Take care, hope the weekend is kind to you.

@Jynx @tyme i cannot just simply take a break i have already tried that and i dont have enough time left and even still the breaks werent helping only pushing me further behind. i cannot take time off uni either.

@Dimity my uni stuff is still going terribly and it is looking like i am going to fail. i dont know what to do anymore.

i am so exhausted and i cant sleep properly and everything is too much and i am screwing everything up and nothing i do is good enough and i am trying my best but it isnt enough and nothing is working anymore i dont know how much longer i can keep doing this for. i am not capable of doing the things i need to do and everything is just a mess idk what to do i really dont.

Oh hun @Eden1919

Sounds like things are so hard right now.

I can see you are doing everything you can to stay on top of things.

Have you spoken to your uni student advisors?

Hello @Eden1919 that sounds really difficult and disappointing. I do hope you do better than you expect. Can you repeat a subject if you need to?

Not sleeping properly makes everything harder. I wonder if talking to your pharmacist could help at all.

My sleep patterns are wonky too, but I get enough sleep overall, or maybe too much.

When you post at 3 or 4 am, have you not slept? Or do you wake up?