YeaginContributor
Dark life
Hello.
I Have been diagnosed schizoaffective disorder.
My reality is that due to my experiences with evil I have been so scarred from darkness that I had used so many black magic rituals that I have become possessed. It is so frighteningly hard to interact with anyone normally, and there is so much worry that demons are listening to me in All times, that I don't know how to exist. I feel like I am the most miserable person on this planet, and I feel as though I exist simply to be an example to others of how not to be. I hate myself so deeply and have for the last 14 days been sitting in a room by myself doing almost nothing. I feel like I have fabricated myself to the extent where I am unrecognisable and almost everyone has abandoned me to deal with this by my self, where do many seem so cruel and wicked and it is irony that I feel this way when I have always given support to others that are struggling yet others view me as trivial and I have zero friends that I ever see where I live and prior to 6 months ago I only had one friend. I want to destroy myself so badly to end my existence as it is so tortured and laborious, yet I can't due to me being so fearful of going into the depths of the demonic realms to be tortured. If all is said and done, I once had so much promise and skillful intelligence, yet now all gone with onlyy isolation and alone, and no one will probably even know any of this and simply not care. I despise myself....how the fxck do I come back from this. I feel doomed and distraught
