Procrastination and stress

@rav3n sitting with uncomfortable emotions can be hard work. Anger is something I often struggle with too. I feel like I’ve lost a part of myself after trauma. There is a part of me I feel like I can never get back. It’s funny how often kids want to grow up and become adults, but once we do, we often crave to be little and naive again.

I often process through writing. I do often find myself pacing and stimming to self regulate.

@creative_writer oh gosh i really felt that. i felt like my childhood trauma took away parts of me too but i really do feel like i'm slowly getting that part back as an adult. it's not the same trying to reclaim those pieces as an adult, but regardless, i think it's important for healing my inner child that i try reclaim them.

yep i wish i cherished my childhood more, i kept waiting to grow up and now... i just want to go back to recess and lunch at school 😆 but i will say that the perks of being an adult was getting more freedom (i come from a brown household so freedom is still 'limited' but it's slowly growing) & being a step closer to my authentic self.

writing is one of my fav ways of processing emotions too. you ever write so hard and fast that your handwriting becomes ineligible and your palm cramps? that's when i know i'm REALLY angry 😅 do you tend to write only when you experience negative emotions or positive ones too?

@rav3n it’s probably natural to long to go back to pre trauma. Trauma changes a person. We lose so much. I suppose we also gain wisdom and knowledge. I also crave freedom, I feel like my parents can be a bit too involved at times. Now I just keep stuff from them.

I am more of a poet, journaling doesn’t help nearly as much as writing poems. I’ve written a lot of poems when manic and a lot when depressed