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BlueBaySenior Contributor

I'm sorry

Hi @NikNik@utopia@Decadian@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Change123@oceangirl@Former-Member@Former-Member@Shaz51 and everyone else that I have forgotten

I just want to say I AM SORRY for :

  1. not being here for others when they so needed help
  2. always going on about my issues and not thinking of others
  3. being so selfish on the forum
  4. needing attention
  5. needing love, support
  6. not replying to others on here

So many times I have wanted to reply to others on here but I am always stuck for what to write. I always think that if i write what i think then i will be judged, laughed at, spoken about or not even cared.

I recently read a post about someone on here being upset that no one had replied to them. And it got me thinking that maybe i am to blame. Maybe i am 'one of those'.

I don't know. Is it because of my BPD that i feel i need so much support, care, attention???

Or is it just me. Today seems like a long day, tears are flowing for i don't know why.

i just feel so bad for some people on here and I DO REALLY CARE about others. It may not show but I do feel what others write on here and i do care.

So if i have upset anyone or not replied to anyone - I AM SORRY.

Maybe i need to stay away for a while, i don't want to but I feel that i am being talked about. Is it me or my negative thought process this morning or me being paranoid.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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Thank you @Change123 for hugs and support

Oh yeah, long lost twin!!!! LOL

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DecadianSenior Contributor

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It seems as if I have two younger twin sisters - @BlueBay and @Change123

How lucky am I - and I have this other sister - TS - and yes - it gets to me at times

I had a cry yesterday - I am often asked why TS does what she does - I don't know - she's worse that having root canal work - and I hurt too

You girls mean so much to me - I wish both of you the best of all - knowing darn well I have walked waist deep through stuff worse than mud at times years ago - and it can still hurt and still make me cry and I have this horrible feeling TS will cause me grief until my end-date - and if her end-date is before mine I will still wonder

Lots of hugs girls

Dec

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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Awe @Decadian I'm so glad we connected. And @Change123 it seems like we know each other so well. All one big family. 🤗 hugs to both of you xxxooo

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pipSenior Contributor

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Hi guys. Sorry about my ranting earlier. guess I hoped that somehow ranting would help, it has. I've sort of decided to let the $$$$ go from the other forum. I can't change what happened. I came back with the intention of 'being there' for those who needed me and all I've done is moan about 'woe is me'. I appreciate the warm welcome I received, so I will now focus on you and how I can be helpful. Love you all and hope I'm still welcome.

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pipSenior Contributor

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Hi @BlueBay. Anything I can do help you I will. Your problems are ours. We all need each other for support and care. Being sensitive and caring means you have a heart of gold and that's 'ace' as my son frequently says. Don't go away, lean on us, a problem shared. We love you and we care.

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor

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@BlueBay

Many people interpret general comments as something they need to thiink about personally. I did it all the time. It was very scary when I was younger and I would get myself quite upset and tied up in knots. Now I can see that it is a natural human response .. dont magnify it as being about a problem that you caused.

I applied to do MH nursing when I was 20 but was rejected as they said I would personalise everything .. they were probably right!

I have counteracted those experiences from my childhood and adolescence by being very vocal (through my fingers) now. It was empowering for me to express my views and opinions .. but that is it all it is .. then i became worried that others would internalise my comments without me ev en knowing who was reading and relating to them. i try and be careful .. but even then .. it still can happen .. all we can do is raise it .. and try and understand and get along with each other.

.. your gardening and walking the dog stories lift my mood .. take care Bella

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what a lovely warm response, am touched xx

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oh good grief, technology! the above quick reply was in response to your comments Pip.

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pipSenior Contributor

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Hi @Former-Member. Thanks for the kindness you've shown. I'm in a better frame of mind now. Have made up my mind that what's in the past, stays there. Even painful memories of childhood trauma I can safely lock up in a box and only take them out, if I decide to. Right now others need me more than I need bad memories.

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utopiaSenior Contributor

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Sounds like you are feeling more positive @pip.
Sometimes it's better to focus on things that we have some control over.
It's also good to spend time focusing on what makes us happy or content.
The more we focus on those things - the more we notice good things - the happier we are.
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