Father's Day grief

My Dad died on Christmas day last year, so I am going through the 1st of everything without him 😭

I am no stranger to loss, so I roughly knew what to expect. Except for the fact that the loss of a parent is far greater for me that the loss of my partner.

My Dad was my go to person for any advise and he was always there with his arms open wide. I didn't realise until after he passed, that he had some of the same issues that I have been struggling with since my childhood. And unfortunately he didn't seek help, or even realise why he was the way he was. But it all makes sense to me now.

But since it is Father's Day on Sunday, I am constantly being reminded of his loss every time I see or hear a Father's Day advertisement.

My sister is going all out and buying a cake and getting balloons, and she will be putting his scattering tube on the table with his balloons 🍰🎈

And my mum has written a poem for him. She read it to me a couple of days ago, and it is the first time I have heard the emotion and sadness in her voice since he passed. I think she is at the next stage, acceptance that she will not see him again, until it is her time to go ☹️

It has made me think, that in this day and age with targeted advertising, why can't they create an app or something where we can select what sort of advertising we don't want to see on our devices, so I don't have to get constantly triggered.

Kindest regards

😊🌹🌻🌷