2015 How will you plan to enjoy time with others?

Thanks @peace @PeppiPatty and everyone else

Yeah it was nice of my friends to hear me out and then make a decision based on having heard the two sides of it all.

I have just picked up my passport application forms, and then i thought about looking into what i would need to organise for travel and working overseas, It looks like i can apply for a ancestry visa, which will allow me to stay up to 5 years in the uk, and it should make travel between other european countries easier as well, but i have also sent an email to the uk consulate, asking a few questions regarding it all.

Hopefully i can do what i plan, and it will be even easier with this type of visa

i am feeling good today, it amazes me how jumpy my moods are,

I also need to contact my ex, in regards to filing for divorce, not too sure how to go about it, as i don't think she realises, that it is needed to be done, i really need to have a conversation with her, and it would be easier face to face, but i don't think it can happen.......

i will try and message her regarding it, later today, i need to figure out how to word the message first

hope you are all well

thank you

@PeppiPatty

I really appreciate all the support that is recieved from everyone on this forum, it makes writing about what i am going through much easier. In regards to the decision about divorce, we had already made that decidion awhile back, i still find it difficult to process, and i have been trying to maintasin a positive outlook on it, i think it will still creep up and blindside me every now and then about the reality of what is now gone.

I have contemplated just moving states, and altho it is changing scenery etc, it still keeps me in too close a proximity for my liking, i think what i want to do, is explore the world, as i have never had the oppurtunity, from the age of 20 to the age of 32, i have been with my now ex, due to her health and her son, we could never just travel for a few months, and altho at the time, i was always fine with it, a part of me always wanted to see the rest of the world.

I have a few destinations that i definately want to visit, and i know it seems like i am running away from my problems, in actuality, i am trying to define that my mi can't stop me doing what i want.

I have had a few well alot of people ask me how i am doing in regards to the separation, at first i was not so good, but now i am alot better, i was at my old work the other day, catching up with some staff members whom i had become pretty good friends with, they were all amazed at the change in me, i looked happy and alive, and my eyes looked brighter, so i have been getting better.

hopefully by october this year, i can be writing on here from somewhere far away, learning some new culture and enjoying my life.

i always try to be as bluntly honest as i can be on here, and i like how you think i am an interesting person

thank you