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@PeppyPatti

My mother called me a vindictive little brat who stole her husband, you don't sound like her, you're actually nice to me

You sound more like my grandmother, that's a good thing.

@Former-Member thanks gremmy

@avant-garde well that's a bit uncalled for on her front. I'm sorry you had to be subjected to that.

So many mothers have too high expectations on other people. Let's throw all these poor old Mums including mine on a desert island somewhere.

Let's include lots of our friends Mother's who are here at Sane.

Iv had many years of therapy to recover from my Mum. I entered therapy because I didn't want to be like my Mum to my two sons.

Also had a major head injury. Because I look okay, talk okay it's hard to see the inside of me. Perhaps like you.

You gave me the biggest compliment ever calling me like your Grandma. Thankyou. My silly husband thinks he is s still 21 which I find pretty funny.

I love being my age ---- I love that I don't intrude in my two sons lives.

My object in my life is to have my Mum in my life and I'm extremely vulnerable, I went and did a certain trauma therapy that is a good for me. It's very confrontational though because it works with the unconcious.

My therapist and I choose to disagree with having mum in my life but when I see her ---- it's not often I see her as a sad pathetic old lady. When she shows off she knows my sons better than me and she dreams she brought them up I go annoyed when it's happening then when I walk away I leave it behind. It's very very liberating.

It's taken many many years to be like this. I'm not jealous that today you can have 7 weeks of therapy, have this trauma counselling and walk away. I'm not jealous of the thousands of dollars iv spent.

I don't care anymore.

When I think of you and many other reasonably newish members I feel thrilled that our older people's stories have made it like it is.

@Former-Member @Oaktree @Glisten @Adge @Meowmy @TAB

@rav3n @tyme @Dimity @Clawde

@Bill16 @Former-Member

proud of all the work you've done, i'm sorry that you're mum doesn't see it, but we do @PeppyPatti 💙

hiya @Former-Member @avant-garde

Hello @rav3n . How are you going?

not too bad! started listening to a podcast recently and they mentioned that for good sleep hygiene, i shouldn't be drinking caffeine after 11am or 8-10hrs before bed... but i love iced coffees in the afternoon/evening!! might have to replace my evening iced coffee with tea caffeine-less tea!?

anyways, how are you going? @Former-Member oh and i didn't get a chance to reply to your ice skating post - sucks that the coach changed his mind last min, not at all fair on you!! honestly really disappointing behaviour from an adult, you deserved that performance. and that's pretty impressive that you choreographed it on your own too!! when's the last time you hit the ice rink?

@rav3n i have an iced coffee at bedtime but even if i don't i still can't sleep. Caffeine has never affected my ability to sleep nor does it give me energy to stay awake 😂. I guess you can only but try to switch it up for something different and see if your sleep improves.

There's alot going on for me at the moment but I'm hanging in there, only by a thread but I'm here nonetheless.

I haven't stepped foot on ice for over 10 years. Ice skating was something I loved and I wanted to continue but they put me into a higher squad and my mother couldn't afford it so one day I went then that was it i never got to go back. I did everything growing up dancing, singing, tap dancing, ballet, ice skating, st John cadets, acting, modelling, gymnastics, swimming but I never got to stick with things for long. Ice skating and st John cadets I did for 8 years each, I did actually use to be a volunteer for a special ambulance service and I started to train to be am ambulance officer but that's when my life went completely down hill. I went from having a dream of wanting to be a doctor to having no dream at all. I still don't know what went so wrong and how things changed so quickly.

@Former-Member i feel like iced coffee/caffeine doesn't really keep me 'awake' either but then again my sleep cycle's been terrible for the last few years 😅 not sure i'm ready to try a 'caffeine-free' period though.

hanging on by a thread counts for a lot, proud of you trying 💙

oh WOW that's super impressive! so i see the creative arts side of things was your jam! even if you couldn't stick around for long, i think it's super cool that you dived into so many different experiences. i unfortunately didn't have the confidence to try out as many things in my childhood, but i guess i'm slowly trying to make up for it now! very slowly... haha. and 8 yrs commitment for the ice skating and cadet role is amazing, what does the cadet role involve? was the skating a lot of competition stuff? sometimes life happens and plans get disrupted, sorry that it happened so suddenly for you. do you reckon it has anything to do with feeling burnt out at the time?

@rav3n i don't drink any other coffee things other than my iced coffee sachets. My sleep is being affected by something else but no idea what 😂.

The cadet role was attending events and providing first aid to people that needed it. We had training and parade each week and had a camp once a year. That's when I really started to shine cos it was something I loved. I think it was getting into my first DV relationship and things just spiralled from there, anxiety really kicked in as did the mental health and that was the end of everything I loved. I did do CFS for several years but that ended due to me becoming pregnant and one of the people trying to injure me intentionally while on the job cos he had a vendetta against me.

@Former-Member ahh yep i doubt the iced coffee sachets have too much caffeine in them anyways... definitely might be another culprit to our poor sleep...😅

oh that's a super cool way of helping others!! i'm so sorry that the DV relationship really changed things for you, do you feel some grief around losing that version of yourself? it really sucks that someone at CFS threatened your safety too ughh!! you deserve to feel like you shine again. and in case you didn't know, you really shine on the forums. there are some threads that i've come across and i've seen you help others and share such kind words - it might not be the same as being a cadet, but i can see your passion for helping others really come through on the forums - and it's just as lovely to witness.

do you think you'll go back to the ice rink one day? do you maybe have a new dream you'd like to build (even if it's a small one)?