Katz42Senior Contributor
Busy and rollercoaster emotions
Hello all, I have barely touched my computer over the last week. All those replies that I said that I'd write, ... sorry about that. I hope that you can understand and relate to life being really up and down and emotions all aboard the rollercoaster of mood swings.
My new hormone treatment is starting to have full effect and I have been teary and sensitive (more so than usual), although, happily the very depressed mood has nearly gone. I had no idea how much my hormones were making so many things "wrong" with my health. I started to read a book about menopause and I feel like such a newb. I'm also a bit miffed that nobody (doctors) told me any of these things. But thank goodness for public libraries!
I spoke to my shrink last week, not sure whether I mentioned, and now I am back on the full dose of my old antidepressants. My chronic pain is more bearable, not perfect, but it never will be. I have been walking most days, and somehow missed the rainy patches. All those lovely endorphins! I feel so much better that I am free to go out when and where I want to. "Want to", includes choosing to avoid overwhelming situations and places. Exposure therapy only just starting. Just walking out the front door is fantastic. Such a revelation! I don't even need to go somewhere, maybe the letterbox, and the benefits of stepping outside of the house. Freedom!
It's not a magic cure, but it might help to change things even briefly.
Any moments of joy are worth it, aren't they?
I'm working on joining a day programme for people with all kinds of disabilities. My social anxiety etc, makes the concept very scary, but I know that loneliness is a weight that is dragging me down. Mixed feelings!
Got to motor, but I hope that everybody is warm enough and can grab some rays 🌞 for a little bit, and that you have moments of joy, no matter how small.
Take care