Red's house

@rav3n thank you.

I feel detatched lately. My mind has been bringing my past up, things I wish I could keep locked away. I don't know why it's doing that. It's my birthday in a month, maybe that's why.

@The-red-centaur that would make sense, birthdays and anniversaries tend to remind us of certain memories and bring up certain unwanted thoughts/emotions too.

the good news is it IS in the past, so when those memories pop up - it's also a reminder of how much you've survived and overcome, how much strength you've built. or at least that's how i like to frame it.

how's your housing situation and supports? and how's your art going?

@rav3n my housing and supports are still uncertain. My ndis stuff is a mess. I've been trying not to think about it.

I've been slowly trying to get things ready for my stall. I haven't done any new ones. I have to fix a lot of my paintings, some got quite damaged in my moves last year.

@The-red-centaur i've got my fingers crossed for you that things will work out.

the stall sounds exciting! the last few artworks i've seen of yours were scenic ones - do you mostly paint nature/sceneries? do you do other sorts of painting?

@rav3n most of my paintings are landscapes.

nice! when did you start painting? @The-red-centaur do you do other forms of art too?

@rav3n i started painting about 13 or so years ago. I used to pick up the paint brush during inpatient stays, then at about 20 years old I joined a mh art group. Sold my first painting about a year later. I featured in a few local projects in Tasmania before relocating to Perth in 2021. I pursued art a lot more and in 2024 I launched my own brand and working a lot more on creating.

I sometimes like doing various projects, im currently up-cycling some furniture. I have been meaning to try some resin art. I sometimes make props, costumes and cosplays; It's been a while since I've done that tho.

oh wowww that's really cool! i love painting too but i'm just not good at it. doesn't take away from the calm it brings me though. @The-red-centaur that's amazing that you've launched your own brand as well, good on you!!

oo the props & costume stuff sounds fun too! and love the up-cycling furniture idea. i've heard resin art is quite fiddly/tricky, but the results tend to look pretty cool.

I've been crashing lately. I feel so overwhelmed and tired. I feel like my support worker doesn't want to talk or listen or help.

The last few days I've been getting sh urges. I don't have anyone i can turn to. I'm having issues with my ndis supports and I'm waiting for a response about a complaint I've done against my community mental health team so I can't go to them.

I feel stuck and trapped. And I'm so stressed with getting everything done for my stall. I have spent most of the day in my bed which really isn't helping. But I don't feel well physically on top of everything. I feel like I'm just a waste of space.

that sounds really rough @The-red-centaur i'm so glad you've reached out here. i can hear how heavy those thoughts and feelings are, you 100% deserve to be seen and heard. when those feelings get overwhelming, do you feel comfy reaching out to BeyondBlue, LL or SCBS, etc.?

in the mean time, we're here for you. you matter to me. it's totally okay if today was unproductive, you're still here - and that matters most.

sitting with you and sending you some warm, gentle hugs 💙