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Red's house

Red's house

Hi, I haven't been here consistently for a little while. Shutting myself off felt safer. I was formed after being suicidal last month. I needed to remove myself from online worlds for my safety and that of others. I'm doing better now, I'm just stressed out.

I enrolled myself to full time study at tafe in a few weeks. Getting that all done pushed me to my limits. But im looking forward. I have dreams. I have hopes. I have desires.

I want to pursue my business and my art talents. I will be doing a cert iv in business to give myself the skills to thrive in this. I want to have a future, which is great but scary. It gives the opportunity for failure. But also success. I got this.

Breathe, Red, breathe, create you're safe place. This thread I'll be hanging out more and try not to be too down or hard for myself. If anyone wants to hang out at my place they are always welcome.

There's always tea and coffee, with biscuits if desired. In this winter the fire is on and we can Chillax

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All good @The-red-centaur . Just something to keep up your sleeve for when the time comes 🙂 Hope you are doing okay.

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Hey @tyme the last few days have been intense for me. Mostly physically but it's draining. My chronic pain sucks. I hate my body. I hate being tired.

I've been trying to distract myself but it's been a challenge. I've been trying to be more supportive here. I'm just tired.

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Everything hurts. I hate withdrawals

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Hey @The-red-centaur ,

As you know, with our Community Guidelines, your recent posts were removed. However, this doesn't mean we invalidate how you are currently feeling.

I hear how difficult these withdrawal symptoms are affecting you. Please speak to the support worker who is there, or contact 000 if you feel unsafe.

We are here for you. Yes it is hard now, but things HAVE been better. You HAVE been better. You have made so much progress in the last 2 years or so.

We believe in you.

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@tyme I know...sorry.....

I'm sorry I just can't do this. What's the point in talking to her. She can't do anything.

And it's not just these stupid pills. I feel like my life this year has gone down the drain so far it's travelled through the pipes out to sea and now I'm drowning.

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Mu brain just isn't working. I don't know words anymore. I want unaliving

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@tyme I'm sorry. I'll seek support elsewhere. This communities safety should be more important. Later.

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I hear that @The-red-centaur . At the same time, having these feelings and thoughts may mean it's time to see crisis supports offline now.

Also, tell yourself that it's only been 15 days into this year. Can you show yourself some compassion?

Engage in some art work or colouring?

Sit with a support worker even if you don't talk?

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We will wait to hear how you go @The-red-centaur

Hugs

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@tyme sorry about my comments earlier, I knew they weren't in guidelines, but still said that stuff,

I spoke to a counsellor and my support worker. I've taken some (correct doages) medication. Hopefully I'll sleep, and tomorrow will be better.

This is all really messing with my head too much. I feel like I don't really exist.

Also I swear someone is at my windows, I hear and see stuff outside. It is not there, I know that. Grrr go away whatever youare, I need to sleep. Come back tomorrow if you have ot be there. For now fk off.

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