Red's house

You're amazing @The-red-centaur .

What a message to give to your younger self.

Im sick again. I'm tired and can't sleep coz it's hard to breathe. Everything hurts. A

I'm stressing that I won't be able to pack my stuff in time coz I'm feeling terrible.

There is staff training today too. I'm going to be there and will be involved in running it. I have to talk about why Christmas period is so hard for me. I have to go into my traumas and explain my hurts. I'm scared. I've been trying to keep it together this December. I don't want to break. I know them hearing it from me and my views on things would help them in supporting me. It's just hard. I missed the initial training due to being sick. I can't miss this one.

Sigh. I hate my body. I am so sick of being constantly sick and I'm tired of being so tired. It hurts.

The meeting was cancelled coz I'm pretty sick.

Hey @The-red-centaur that sucks that your meeting had to be cancelled, but it sounds like you probably needed the rest.

How are you feeling now?

@Ru-bee it's 35 today, my current house doesn't have air-conditioning. But I've been cold on the couch rugged up. I've been resting. Hopefully in a few days I'll be feeling better.

Oh wow @The-red-centaur

Glad you've been getting rest, hopefully you start feeling better soon!

I feel like I'm getting worse. My body doesn't know if it's hot or cold...like I'm shivering cold etc, sweating profusely. Temp is a bit everywhere...bed isn't helping. Everything hurts. I feel weak and dizzy. I'm nauseous. My chest hurts. Breathing and coughing sucks.

Urghhhhh sorry about complaining so much. I really don't need to be sick rn. I'm supposed to be getting ready to move. But im stuck in bed crying.

Life has a way of going wrong when things start improving slightly. I get a lot of health anxiety, im always sick. It's hard when there is always physical health issues to battle on top of mh. I'm tired.

hey @The-red-centaur i'm so sorry to hear you're feeling unwell. i can't imagine how exhausting this must be, especially with your move-in coming up. i hope you get some rest and relief soon, is there anything that's been helping you so far?

you don't need to apologise here, you deserve a space to vent!! sending you healing energy 💜

ohhh sending you lots of hugs @The-red-centaur , sitting with you my friend and hope you feel better soon

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I hate my head, I don't know if I'm actually sick or my head is playing on me.

Chest pain=anxiety

Shortness of breath = anxiety

Sweats and shaking =anxiety

Unable to focus or concentrate =anxiety

Im over analysing it all....ever since I had pneumonia i think I'm dying every cough I get.

But if I'm actually sick I probably shouldn't be telling myself I'm fine and get some help.

This is all keeping me up....I'm so tired. I just want to sleep wake up and breathe