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Red's house

Red's house

Hi, I haven't been here consistently for a little while. Shutting myself off felt safer. I was formed after being suicidal last month. I needed to remove myself from online worlds for my safety and that of others. I'm doing better now, I'm just stressed out.

I enrolled myself to full time study at tafe in a few weeks. Getting that all done pushed me to my limits. But im looking forward. I have dreams. I have hopes. I have desires.

I want to pursue my business and my art talents. I will be doing a cert iv in business to give myself the skills to thrive in this. I want to have a future, which is great but scary. It gives the opportunity for failure. But also success. I got this.

Breathe, Red, breathe, create you're safe place. This thread I'll be hanging out more and try not to be too down or hard for myself. If anyone wants to hang out at my place they are always welcome.

There's always tea and coffee, with biscuits if desired. In this winter the fire is on and we can Chillax

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Hi.

Um. Words are not coming easy today. They haven't for a while. I have been fading. I feel like my essence is drifting away.

Life seems pointless. A void. Somewhere I have never belonged to.

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On a random side note. My extended family is in Perth for my cousins wedding this weekend. Luckily most hate me and don't want to see me. They all pretend I don't exist, it's probably best that way. My mother is insisting to see me. Can't she pretend I don't exist either.

I wish I didn't exist too

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@The-red-centaur aww hun, good on you for taking the steps to reach out! Feeling disconnected suuuucks. I dunno about you, but sometimes when I'm feeling disconnected I find it really soothing to get out into nature. You got the time/energy/means to go get out into some greenery?

Sending hugs 💜🫂

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@Jynx I bought myself a new plant today

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@The-red-centaur ooh yay nice!! What kind?

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I bought a Venus Fly Trap

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Oh I love those @The-red-centaur how do you take care of it? It's a jungle plant, right? I've managed not to kill my calathea for over a year so I'm thinking I am responsible enough to get another house plant soon hehehe

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Nvm

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You should just do it instead of talking about it. .......

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Urgh. Now family shit is done I can get back to my real world.

I need to figure out how to pull myself up and get back on track. Life had stopped since I moved NDIS providers and I've been sick, tired, and lost amongst it as well. I have to move house again in the next month or too which is going to suck coz I just started getting settled here.

Anywho. I need to make some goals again and get back to my business. I'm so tired of being tired and depressed and not being able to do what I want or need to do. I need to actually force myself to at least get out of bed every day. Little steps. Then hopefully in the new year it will be easier to return to operations and get going again.

Also another thing my GP doesn't seem to know why I so sick, unwell and exhausted all the time. Hopefully answers come soon.

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