Big Week

Good afternoon all,

I am having a busy week this week, compared to my last couple of months being stuck at home with a respiratory infection.

Today, I left the house and went to a different suburb. I was taken through all these different places that I had no idea existed. It was heavenly to get out of the house. I have had cabin fever so badly, not that I think that you could have cabin fever in a good way. I took advantage of looking out of the car window and seeing different trees, gardens, strange architecture and interesting shops. Most people probably wouldn't notice those little things, but it is amazing how much it meant to me to experience something different other than what happens in these four walls.

I had an appointment with my psychiatrist, but because I was early, I had time to sit in a cafe and drink a cappucino, a real treat for me. My doctor gave me helpful advice, things that I need to do to get over this rough patch. I am going to be going through a change of antidepressants. That will have to be a slow and steady process and may bring back suicidal ideation. Hopefully not though. I like my shrink because he always has another option to help me cope with my symptoms better. It gives me hope when I think that I have tried everything.

This afternoon, I have to see my psychologist. She's great, supportive, and really helps me to work on the difficult stuff.

So emotionally a big day, but also I am used to just seeing my psychologist once a week and nothing else happening.

Tomorrow I am catching up with my GP, and hopefully he can help me sort my wild hormones. I am menopausal and haven't been able to get my hormone replacement therapy medication for a few months now, a shortage apparently.

Three appointments in one week is a lot more than I am used to, but it's all part of self care and I am proud of myself that I am doing it.

I don't feel proud of myself very often at all, but my psychologist tells me to take note of all my achievements no matter how big or small. I think that it helps me reset my mind to a more positive track. "I'm not all bad" sort of thing.

Well, had better get ready for that appointment.

I hope that everyone is finding some joy in their lives today.