No contact emotional struggles with NPD family

Really struggling with emotions after needing to cut off all contact with family for physical and mental safety due to malignant narcissist mother and her previous attempt to end my life. Feeling so much grief, have a psychiatrist but am not able to see her that often who’s supported me and highly encouraged no contact for my safety but it’s got to the stage I have needed to cut off my entire family and extended family and feeling so hurt and angry and broken. Trying to hold onto truths and move on with life with trying to trust myself again and live without fear