unownCasual Contributor
Uprooted and overwhelmed
Howdy all, I've got a history of struggling with my mental health but found my anxiety worse than ever over the past month. I made a big choice (resigning from my job and trying to move back to Perth) because I thought it was the right call for me but I'm struggling a lot with following through. I'm also feeling a lot of guilt for what I see as dragging my husband down with me because he's supported me and come along on this whole journey.
I accepted a teaching job right after graduating in 2022 in a rural town at the top of WA. My housing and everything is tied to the job and while I had some big wins and wonderful moments of joy I also struggled a lot with feeling overwhelmed and being really hard on myself. I had some bad lows last year but the one that came on in week 6 of term 1 this year was the worst of my life and left me feeling quite unsafe because I was certain I was stuck and that triggered unsafe action where previously I'd only had urges. Despite setting ourselves up assuming we'd stay for 5 years I submitted my resignation on Monday because it was the only option I thought I could handle (rather than reducing my workload or trying to switch to another school). This means we have to get rid of most of our stuff and only keep what can fit in our car (which is salary packaged for bonus stress 😩) to drive down to Perth because I'm not eligible for relocation support. We had some luck initially with selling stuff but it's slowing down now and I'm having a hard time culling things knowing that a lot of it will likely end up needing to go to the tip because we need the house mostly empty to do our vacate clean and move. We have a place to stay lined up in Perth and I can kind of imagine building a life up again when we get there but the 2-3 weeks here decluttering and everything are really hard to wrap my head around. I'm trying to focus on one small thing at a time but I keep getting caught up in feelings of attachment to stuff I should let go of or worrying about other things that need doing. I've been doing my best to reach out for mental health support and it has been helpful at times but I'm just really struggling to believe everything will work out right now. Has anyone else made a big change like this where they had to start over fresh?
